Cup of tea with Aisha

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah 🌈 Hmm.. how many times in my life I have been 'in the middle', waiting for the next step? I have probably been in this situation for past four years, more or less.  And middle, or waiting, is not a bad thing. It feels like it.. but it could be also time for preparing and dreaming. Right now I am in Finland again, living at my friend's place, no job no income. Yet. And part of me wants to panic about getting an apartment, social security and a steady life, with my husband, living together, finally . And the rest of me is thinking that day by day, I can put effort in all of that, and then try to take it easy, recover from stress-related almost-psychosis, do lovely workouts with my dear friend, and trust that love will carry us to our future. By the will of Allah, subhana wa ta'ala. ... Otherwise there is not much. Medication is doing it's tricks, so there's not so many ideas or energy in my dear brain. I have tried to put together...

 Assalamu aleikum everyone 😊❤ Finland has been ranked twice (?) The Happiest Country of the World. Wow.. this country, where we probably complain the most? 😄  Is that the key to happiness, complaining? It just might be. ... I've been pondering about relationships. I think we all wish to be happy with our spouses. But why so often a couple ends up arguing, and the spark fades through time? Complaining brings quickly a negative touch to relationships. It could also be an important step to change. Why complain if everything is fine? That is true but.. isn't it better to notice problems so there could be development?  Communication is the key too. But when one is negative and other positive, the energy between them creates more chaos that reconciliation. ... How to have a happy relationship then? Internet provides multiple advices, lists and no-no's, and it seems a same song over and over. You know, the things we know we are supposed to do but maybe don't feel energy for....

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah everyone.. .. how have you been? I had to come back to Finland. Alhamdulillah, still. My visa run out and also, my mental health went down the hill like a ball of snow so it's much better to be 'at home'.  I'm staying at my friend's, and got an update in medication too. I'm feeling better every day and my feet have landed on the ground ☺👀❤ ... I've written a poem, read my dear book (the one I save for special occasions and in need on beautifying of iman), exercised. Found a new favourite Qur'an reciter (Tariq Mohammed), turned myself closer to the track. Forgiving myself the mistakes I've made. Taken some distance too, from some things that have happened. Missed my husband. So much I can't even think about.. ... Trust in Allah. Tawakkul. That has been my guideline, and I guess I have to admit I went straight to the bush when I started to forget to keep that in mind. Every day. Constantly. It's too easy to ste...