Cup of tea with Aisha

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh everyone :) how was your weekend? I'm sitting in my nest here in sofa corner, chirp chirp (sorry :( ).. apparently my laptop/internet doesn't work well in the kitchen so the nest it is. I have my tea, I have 90 days, I have a peaceful playlist, and time, alhamdulillah. Today has been a nice day, just went to market, cooked, did chores and relaxed a lot.  ... This evening has turned out to be emotional. Sometimes du'aa does that. Powerful. And not that I ask also for myself, even though I wrote last time more about my own perspective and my own gains. I do pray for all of us too. That's what makes the du'aa stronger.  A good prayer doesn't go to waste. I'm happy I got to have at least this one, alhamdulillah. I have had a bit difficulties with being able to focus well.  There has also been some personal matters that have been weighing me down. I am generally a happy person, but I fall short in some things too. Ev...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh all :) how's your week going? The kettle is on, and I am setting up a nest in the sofa corner, to relax and chat with you guys. How have you been? My day was a bit busy at the noon, and then I have been at home, doing some home chores and entertaining our ninja turtle. Alhamdulillah I have had all this time to recharge, I really need it. Tomorrow then some other errands to run. ... My writing process changes a bit, depending on the day. Often I just sit down and talk what's on my mind. I like to keep my blog this way, like I would chat with friends. Simple but maybe also meaningful at times.  Sometimes I have more specific things I want to get off my chest. Writing is also a way for me to process my feelings, and events, aside from tingling my creative side. It's very therapeutic. I like that I am able to fully control my story, tell my side of things in a way I'm comfortable with. In social interaction I take very easily t...

Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah :) not long time from last one, but how are u doing? I have my peppermint green tea, a working laptop, some tunes for writing and 90 days on the background. Me-time. Today I only did laundry, and then I have been taking care of Suttis and his mess (I call him Kakka-Suttis these days.. you can figure that word out quickly :d ). But after all, a good day, alhamdulillah. ... Alhamdulillah is one of my favorite words. It means all praise be to Allah, al hamdu lillah. It is used as a thank you (directed to God), or in times of relief or happiness. And often an "alhamdulillah" is a result of du'aa, a prayer.  Du'aa is a different prayer than the 5 daily prayers which we call salat. Du'aa is similar to how Christians pray. Basically we join our hands together and ask from Allah anything we want. And not only for ourselves, but to our family and friends, and everyone around the world. There's no limit of what to ask. Nothing is impossib...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh all :) how have u been? Today was another gray day. Weather changes, that's just normal. I try to keep my mood up even though there's no sunshine promised on the next week. Alhamdulillah. I also need a lot of time now to relax, so I don't really mind the rain.  I cooked, and went to do some grocery shopping after dinner. Got some flavored dates, yum! ... I'm trying now to cut sugar from my diet, it's not easy so no judgement here. I'm trying to find some good alternatives. But it also got me thinking.. why I always have to have that dopamine rush? Do everyone have that tendency or just us (former) addicts? It's like there's always something I need to "get", let it be a dessert or other treat, or at least a cup of tea. It makes everything so much more difficult. And even though time has passed, I do have occasional cravings to all haram things I've left in past. Sigh.. definitely not easy. But o...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh dears :) how are u doing? I have been quite busy the past days. I've met friends and have been well outside my comfort zone. And that has felt good, alhamdulillah. Right now I'm on an easier phase with my anxiety, so I want to do things and enjoy my time as long as it lasts.  ... I have a cup of peppermint tea and some time in my hands. I need time to recover too, so I do value my me-time. We have good routines with hubby, we both get our own time, and we have time to spend it together too. In previous relationships, the dynamics have been more toxic (from my side too), and I have forgotten myself. Now I'm happy about this balance we have, and that things flow naturally in a way that I get my own time too.  And I just happen to have a bit smaller batteries for social events. It doesn't mean that I don't enjoy company, I do. It means that I get tired a bit earlier than f.e. more extroverted people. So taking time to just...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah dears :) how are u doing? I had work today, and then I needed to go grocery shopping after that. Pray my prayers and cook. Mission accomplished! Alhamdulillah. Now it's time to take my own time and hang out with you guys. :) ... I kinda put the trigger warning in the title of this post. I don't want to make anyone feel bad about themselves and I know weight can be very sensitive topic. But I also want to share my weight loss journey with you, the reasons behind it and how it has been going, in a positive way. But if you think this is not your topic, skip this post ♡ no judgement here. So. Last 5-10 years I have gained a lot of weight, I'm talking about maybe 20-25 kg of extra weight. At first, it seemed more healthy, because I was before rather anorectic even. But slowly through time I changed, and my body changed, and from S-M size I found myself in L, XL and XXL size. The main reason for this has been my medication, olanzapine, which basic...