Cup of tea with Aisha

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh all :) how are u doing? The weather is grey and rainy, and I don't have anything to do today, alhamdulillah. I was planning to do a workout after I've drank an illegal amount of coffee, but I wanted to write first, as I have time before I need to prepare the dinner and so on. And maybe I don't even workout but dance. But I am on a bit heavier subject today, and I will talk about death so if it triggers you, now is a safe time to stop reading. ... I love this book, even though I haven't still read it to the end. The fault is not on the book, it's me and my limited skill to focus. But I have reached almost the final pages, and they tell about death. It's not a subject we can usually speak comfortably. Death brings us feelings of loss, sadness, grief, and even fear. Or some cases, longing. There was a time when I was very suicidal. I thought about dying every day. I'm lucky that I didn't have the courage, and I...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh all :) how's your weekend going? It's Juhannus aka Midsommer time, and even though we don't celebrate, this is when the summer is at its best. The sun doesn't really go down, we had a beautiful warm weather today, and now the fan works at night as it is supposed to. I haven't been anywhere, just home relaxing, enjoying of the balcony and the plants growing.. It's been nice. We had a healthy dinner today: pesto marinated tilapia with attieke, which is a bit like couscous but it's made of cassava. We also watched a football game. I have had unlimited amount of cherries and many nectarines. Alhamdulillah. The summer found me. ♥ ... Now I have my tea, and I'm ready to chat. First I want to tell you that I have achieved something: I have had time to scroll through Vinted, and I have been tempted to buy something brand new, but I haven't! No packages on the way. No money spent. Just looking, and then telling m...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh dears :) how are u? I have been active today! In the morning I had two cups of coffee (yes, I have been a coffee girlie since June started), did a workout, showered and went to work. I had a shift for today and in sha Allah tomorrow another one. The work was a bit physical, or so it felt after more than one month without any work. I'm happy to go tomorrow too. It feels good to be active. I almost made another workout, I mean now in the evening, but decided to cool down instead and let my body rest, and have a chat with you guys. ... Tonight from sunset, the first month of the islamic calendar starts. The month is called Muharram, which comes from arabic root h-r-m, meaning "forbidden" or "sacred". Muharram is one of the four sacred months of the islamic hijri calendar (like Ramadan is one of the sacred months). Hijri calendar, the islamic calendar, gets it's name from Hijra, which means the migration early musli...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah :) do you have plans for the weekend? I have had some troubles recently, more and less personal matters.. last time I wrote some of it. But today I had still a nice day. It was Helsinki Day, and there was lot of events all around the city. I met a sister and her toddler, and went for a walk around the Töölö bay. Got some coffee on our way, and we enjoyed the walk even though the weather was a bit cloudy and cool today. Alhamdulillah. I took a metro home and stopped by a Nepalese restaurant, I treated us with some take away to dodge grocery shopping and cooking today. Tomorrow in sha Allah it's jollof rice day, which is my nemesis but also a dish become dear, it's still a trial and error case but in sha Allah I will keep on practicing.  ... I have been thinking about all of this going around, same topics, same scenarios. I mean, my life is easy at the moment, alhamdulillah. I have just jammed into these same thought patterns, same situations. Pa...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh all :) how are u doing? We had a rainy day today in Helsinki. I met my nurse in a café, which is a nice option for a regular meeting at the clinic. I had a caramel latte. After that I went to buy few things from a halal shop, and came home. I met my husband on the way and we changed news and few kisses, he's so sweet ma sha Allah.  ... To be honest, I've been feeling so lousy these days. My ovulation has probably passed and I start to be on the, well, lousier part of the monthly cycle.. I didn't even want to write or do anything, but here I am. Have to show up, things must go on, that's how it just is.  I have been thinking a lot about my confidence, and how low it is. I am tired to even think anymore how to be more confident. But I don't also want to keep loathing in this anxiety I have been in for past days. I wouldn't say to my friends, or even strangers the things I say to myself. I don't even think that bad...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh :) how r u? Today I went to do groceries, how else.. alhamdulillah. Yesterday we had a date night with hubby, had some quality time and I got to eat a whole pizza. Before dinner we walked by the seaside. Today I just stayed the rest of the day at home, and had my guilty pleasures: coffee and mints. It's not gonna be a habit, just a little side quest. Now I'm here, and hubby and Suttis are finally sleeping, so I have time for all of you :)  ... Yesterday's pizza was a nice treat, we hardly eat out or order take out. But today I got the sweetest treat: the first strawberry of the summer. I bought this ready grown plant from the supermarket, and it's already making a lot of berries. Also I fed some of the leaves to Suttis, it's good to broaden his diet even though he's a bit of a picky eater.  Made a nice dinner for myself too, chicken soup. I want to share the recipe because it was so delicious (I also made accidental...