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Friendly thoughts

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 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah all :) how did your weekend go? Alhamdulillah. Today I had so good time with my friends. We had some fresh baked apple pie with vanilla sauce, and good talks about everything, just like it is best. :) Then on my way home I went to a nepalese restaurant to get a dinner for myself, and accidentally bumped into one old friend. We haven't seen each other in few years, and so much has happened. In sha Allah we'll meet again soon :) I came home through a dark forest, called my husband and slipped in the mud with my white sneakers.. when I came home, the first thing my husband did was taking my shoes and washing them. He is so sweet and he really goes an extra mile helping me. Princess treatment is not always fancy dinners and gifts, even thought that's nice too. But it might also be a filled water boiler, found in the kitchen ready when I come home, knowing well that the first thing I always do is make a cup of tea.  ... I have had very sweet enco...
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Tears and drops

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 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh all :) how have u been? I've been fighting against the anxiety and I think I'm winning, alhamdulillah. I had to cancel my participation to a sisters meeting, but I try to go to the mosque tomorrow in sha Allah. So today I had other plans.. I got a gift card, so I bought a gift for myself. Got a gift for hubby too. And then I went to market. After I got home, it started to rain like someone would've just snap their fingers, full rain.  ... There has been a lot of causes getting visibility again in social media. I feel ashamed how easy it is to just live in a little bubble, enjoying all the comforts in life, and forgetting what the reality is for millions and millions. I'm glad these platforms like Tiktok can give voices to the people who need be heard. It's heartbreaking to listen, but we must. There's so much pain than can't be just set aside because we wanna have a nice brunch or something. I'm not claiming...
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Relieved

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Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh dears :) how's your weekend going? I planned yesterday evening a walk for today, but the weather was looking so grey I decided to stay today just home. I treat my anxiety with a happy pill, prescribed one, and after few cups of morning coffee I changed to my regular green tea, so I have something to sip while I write.  ... I'm feeling optimistic. I want to thank all of you who made du'aa for me, it helped, alhamdulillah. A prayer never goes to waste. I feel a lot more grounded and stable. Yesterday I even wore my new abaya to go do groceries, and it felt so good. Little steps.  I've been trying to think about the connection with the hijamah and my mood. I was expecting to feel better overall afterwards, but even though physically I feel light, my mood has been so low and anxious, and I've had very dark thoughts. It might be that these two aren't connected, but also I thought maybe after cleaning the physical heart fr...
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A little prayer needed

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 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah all :) how have u been? I'm here, alhamdulillah. It's been an interesting week so far. I'm diving deeper into healing, maybe more on finding the ways of healing and guidance that resonates with me. If my life has been stable, now I'm on an emotional and spiritual roller coaster. ... It's exactly like I wrote in my last post: the anxiety is back. I had to even ask some extra medicine today, and the doctor kindly wrote me a prescription. I don't like to take these kind of drug medicines, but there is a time and place for them. I took one when I came home and it helped.  It's been anxiety attacks, low imaan and struggle with hijab. Feeling of despair. Surviving, fighting against my own mind. So I need to also prescribe some treatment for myself. Firstly, no social media, or keeping it minimum. There's so much hate online that it makes me sick. That's why I might delete my Facebook these coming days. If you don't see ...
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Invisible

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 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh dears :) jummah mubarak! This has been a bit exhausting day, and strange too. Actually it started yesterday evening, I had a terrible anxiety attack. Alhamdulillah for my husband, and of course I made du'aa too, so it eased when I was able to talk about the things that overwhelmed me. I did cry, then woke up early in the morning, and my eyes were so swollen still. Well, I hope no one noticed. I had an odd work gig, but sometimes it's like that, basically I only took the trash out and then the customer sent me home, so easy for me, but I was ready to work more. But what can I do, I have to respect the customer's will, so then I came back home. I feel like a lot happened in such a small time. ... My anxiety comes and goes, and it has shown some signs that it's coming back. I do have a little anxiety almost every day, and partly it is normal, but then there's the type of anxiety that almost overpowers me and puts my though...
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Collectibles

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 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah :) how are u doing? I was gonna write edibles on the title, and I started the post with my e-mail address.. (essalo...) But that's what happens when you sit in the sofa corner, the sharpness and professionality of the kitchen table is gone, and we are off to this little craziness we might actually need. There's no tea with Aisha without a cup of tea, and we also needed my husband to go take a nap so we have the whole house for our thoughts and chat. :) ... Do you collect something? It can be anything. Go ahead and share in the comment section :) I'd like to collect experiences, and maybe we all do that anyways. I mean I'd like to travel to many countries, go to a pottery and sewing class, art class too, and I'd like to learn more of making natural cosmetics at home. I'd like to do more things together with my spouse (mostly I'd like to travel with him! ♥), and I'd like to do something.. I don't know what it could be, ...
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Kind of a Sunday

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Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh all :) how's your weekend been? We are on Sunday, and the week is turning to another, in sha Allah. I'm a bit tired, but decided to come write here in the kitchen, maybe it'll make me sharper. Peppermint tea on the way, like you know I like to drink in the evenings, and I have a few dates for a sweet treat. ... I'm excited for next week, genuinely. This past week was so good and I feel like I was able to give and receive so good energies that there's some of it left for next week too. I don't have yet much planned things, just a few, but in sha Allah the week will shape itself while it goes forward. I will be more aware of my diet and health, and give myself stress free time, and also enjoy the process. I know this all might sound silly, but note that I have a severe mental illness, I am somewhat still a recovering addict, and I am an anxious stress ball, so I need to plan intentionally to have good vibes hehe.  I al...
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