Cup of tea with Aisha

Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah dears :) how r u? Today's mood has been miscellaneous. My thoughts are restless. But I was able to go to the market, alhamdulillah. Didn't get all what I needed though, so I gotta go again. But anyways! The anxiety might be back so I have to investigate the scene a bit. There's an upcoming event I'd like to attend but it makes me stress so I don't know what to do. This is why it's best I'm only an underground blogger and not a famous influencer because heck, I can't go anywhere! This is frustrating but in sha Allah everything will work out. ... Yeah, mixed feelings and rushing thoughts. I'm all the time somewhere else, meaning future or past, that I find it hard to enjoy things. I spend so much time on imaginary scenarios that I forget it never happened. I create the anxiety in my head by overthinking everyday things. Argh. I try to take control of it by forgetting screens and taking some time to just breathe. And now ...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh dears :) how have u been? I had a nice day, alhamdulillah. Went to the jummah prayer, and picked two things from my favorite shop, I tell you more below. I got answers to my little prayers, and hopefully for the bigger ones too. Then I came home through market, we had dinner, and finally it's the time to chat with you guys :) ... So what did I get from the swamp? Hehe. My favorite shop is  Kaurilan sauna . It's located on the same street as my favorite mosque, so two birds with one stone (I don't want to stone birds though, this is not a good saying). They sell all kinds of handmade sweetnesses, like soaps and other cosmetics, cleaning products, all kinds of sauna stuff (like sauna hats!). I bought a deodorant cream and a natural peat face mask (hence the swamp). The deo cream is familiar to me already, I know it works so well even though I'm a stinky and most deodorants won't work for me.. but this does! Unfortunately ...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah :) how have u been? I had a meeting with my nurse in the morning, then I did some grocery shopping and came home to rest the remaining day. I've been gathering my thoughts and practiced what I preach: I try to enjoy the moment. ... These past two times I've met my nurse I've felt that something is off. And sometimes it's like that. Sometimes I don't also have anything new to say. It's normal to go on a little loop too. Mainly I keep on making my own life difficult by overthinking and being worried, even when I'm not actively anxious. Or I phrased that wrong, it's not me doing the overthinking, it just happens, and even though I can try to gain the control over it, it's not in my hands do I have it or not. But it is truly frustrating when your own mind plays tricks on you. If I strip down all my thoughts and just objectively look at my life, I am so freaking happy, like really. I'm in a good place with everything a...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh all :) how's your weekend been? I slept late today, only woke up to hubby making sounds in kitchen, meaning breakfast. I just had some tea. I'm not actually a breakfast person, but often I try to eat something in the mornings because it's the healthy way. But really I'm more of a brunch person - my stomach needs some time to wake up too so brunch time is ideal.  I went for a walk, found some new routes. My circles here are very small, I used to walk in the forest but now when I want to know our surroundings better, it's a bit trickier to find good places. I love a good loop, in sha Allah I'll find one. Went to market too, to pick few things. Ziaja day and night cream, some magnesium pills, earbuds, candy, yoghurt, cheese. A bit random. Then came home and had my brunch: hot cocoa and cheese sandwiches, yum.  ... The sunshine does so much, ma sha Allah. Instantly more energetic and feeling like going out. I have to st...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh :) how r u today? I had a little shopping round. I went to pick a book from library, then I used my gift card at Tokmanni, and then I bought socks and food at the supermarket, and picked my Limepop order on my way home. Alhamdulillah. I got some supplies for my art project (or it's more like a diary project but anyways), some snacks and also gloves now when the weather is turning cold. I feel like I have plenty and I only used 20 euros so all in all, a good trip. ... My Limepop order contained four things: almond oil, castor oil, glycerine and frankincense essential oil. The frankinsence oil is produced in Somalia, that's nice. It's new for me, and I didn't know what to expect. I was pleasantly surprised when I realized frankincense is a type of resin. So it has a nice, fresh scent with a hint of lavender or some herb. Beautiful, nice scent. It also has great healing qualities, especially treating aging skin. It also reliev...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh all :) how's your week started? I had one appointment today, and after that I did some grocery shopping. I bought yoghurt and frozen blueberries, and I can tell you that nothing tastes better right now! With a drizzle of honey of course. I also bought my favorite flavored dates, tastes like cinnamon rolls, and I enjoy them now with a cup of silver tea. Husband sleeping, only the plates are calling me to come and wash them, but I postpone it because I need a bit of time for myself first. ... I consider myself so lucky. Before I was a muslim, I prayed occasionally, but after I started calling God Allah, I saw how my prayers came true, one by one. It's a bit funny because Allah means just the God in English, so basically it was the same thing. But maybe I had more clearer idea, which kind of deity I was calling. And Allah is the greatest. As muslims we know that Allah has 99 names/attributes, which describe for us how He is like. You ...