Cup of tea with Aisha

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh all :) how have u been? Today was another gray day. Weather changes, that's just normal. I try to keep my mood up even though there's no sunshine promised on the next week. Alhamdulillah. I also need a lot of time now to relax, so I don't really mind the rain.  I cooked, and went to do some grocery shopping after dinner. Got some flavored dates, yum! ... I'm trying now to cut sugar from my diet, it's not easy so no judgement here. I'm trying to find some good alternatives. But it also got me thinking.. why I always have to have that dopamine rush? Do everyone have that tendency or just us (former) addicts? It's like there's always something I need to "get", let it be a dessert or other treat, or at least a cup of tea. It makes everything so much more difficult. And even though time has passed, I do have occasional cravings to all haram things I've left in past. Sigh.. definitely not easy. But o...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh dears :) how are u doing? I have been quite busy the past days. I've met friends and have been well outside my comfort zone. And that has felt good, alhamdulillah. Right now I'm on an easier phase with my anxiety, so I want to do things and enjoy my time as long as it lasts.  ... I have a cup of peppermint tea and some time in my hands. I need time to recover too, so I do value my me-time. We have good routines with hubby, we both get our own time, and we have time to spend it together too. In previous relationships, the dynamics have been more toxic (from my side too), and I have forgotten myself. Now I'm happy about this balance we have, and that things flow naturally in a way that I get my own time too.  And I just happen to have a bit smaller batteries for social events. It doesn't mean that I don't enjoy company, I do. It means that I get tired a bit earlier than f.e. more extroverted people. So taking time to just...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah dears :) how are u doing? I had work today, and then I needed to go grocery shopping after that. Pray my prayers and cook. Mission accomplished! Alhamdulillah. Now it's time to take my own time and hang out with you guys. :) ... I kinda put the trigger warning in the title of this post. I don't want to make anyone feel bad about themselves and I know weight can be very sensitive topic. But I also want to share my weight loss journey with you, the reasons behind it and how it has been going, in a positive way. But if you think this is not your topic, skip this post ♡ no judgement here. So. Last 5-10 years I have gained a lot of weight, I'm talking about maybe 20-25 kg of extra weight. At first, it seemed more healthy, because I was before rather anorectic even. But slowly through time I changed, and my body changed, and from S-M size I found myself in L, XL and XXL size. The main reason for this has been my medication, olanzapine, which basic...

Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah all :) Eid Mubarak! Yesterday was so nice day, alhamdulillah. I went to Eid prayer, the masjid was packed! Managed to pray and also find my friend, and then we went to drink coffee with some sisters and had so nice time ma sha Allah. Then I came home, went to grocery shopping and the rest of the day I relaxed at home. Which I'm gonna do today too, hehe. The weather is beautiful though, sunshine and warm. Me and husband have had our own plans for this Eid, but we take some time together too in the meantime. We just started to watch One battle after another and will finish it later in sha Allah.  ... I have treated myself with unlimited cheese, chocolate biscuits and candy, and black tea with oat milk. I don't want to think about my weight or feel guilty of eating things outside my diet. I'm currently having my fourth cup of tea, and it just tastes so good. There's time to be more strict later in sha Allah. But I will start my workouts toda...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah :) how's your week going? I had some work today, alhamdulillah. Came home, had a shower and prayed my prayers. We had our dinner and now we've both been relaxing. Last days of Ramadan, huh? These last ten days felt heavier but also passed by so fast. ... Yeah, I'm not gonna lie, I've been struggling these last ten days. I feel like I'm so drained and I can't do anything I was supposed to do. Also I crave for sugar so intensely, that I haven't been able to keep my diet like I wanted to.  Setbacks happen. I'm disappointed in myself, but I also know it could be worse so.. alhamdulillah for everything. I try to make at least some du'aas and trust in Allah swt that He sees my effort. And Eid is just around the corner. I want it to be a happy celebration. I also want to teach myself think more positively instead of this constant worrying, so maybe I could list some achievements from this Ramadan. I hope it resonates with yo...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah all :) how's your week going? I'm making my cup of tea, and I watch some 90days too. Today was an easy day. Generally days start to feel easier now when winter starts to turn to spring and we have so much more light. Alhamdulillah. I went to pick my Vinted package and bought some greens to Suttis. Then I've also relaxed, spent time with the very much bitey Suttis, and prepared iftaar and so on.  ... What's new on the cosmetics front? Well, maybe you remember I started to use the rose water as a refreshing spray/ toner. That didn't work out. I might have had to dilute it, because it started to irritate my skin. I haven't used it since I noticed the symptoms. So yeah, not every product is for everyone.. I'll try it in baking next in sha Allah.  I've been using  The Cream  by Arctic Elixir for two weeks now, and I really like it. It has lightened my dark under eyes, and also smoothened some fine lines under my eyes too. It h...