Posts

Give you the whole wide world

-
 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah :) do you have plans for the weekend? I have had some troubles recently, more and less personal matters.. last time I wrote some of it. But today I had still a nice day. It was Helsinki Day, and there was lot of events all around the city. I met a sister and her toddler, and went for a walk around the Töölö bay. Got some coffee on our way, and we enjoyed the walk even though the weather was a bit cloudy and cool today. Alhamdulillah. I took a metro home and stopped by a Nepalese restaurant, I treated us with some take away to dodge grocery shopping and cooking today. Tomorrow in sha Allah it's jollof rice day, which is my nemesis but also a dish become dear, it's still a trial and error case but in sha Allah I will keep on practicing.  ... I have been thinking about all of this going around, same topics, same scenarios. I mean, my life is easy at the moment, alhamdulillah. I have just jammed into these same thought patterns, same situations. Pa...
Post a Comment
Read more »

Self defense

-
 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh all :) how are u doing? We had a rainy day today in Helsinki. I met my nurse in a café, which is a nice option for a regular meeting at the clinic. I had a caramel latte. After that I went to buy few things from a halal shop, and came home. I met my husband on the way and we changed news and few kisses, he's so sweet ma sha Allah.  ... To be honest, I've been feeling so lousy these days. My ovulation has probably passed and I start to be on the, well, lousier part of the monthly cycle.. I didn't even want to write or do anything, but here I am. Have to show up, things must go on, that's how it just is.  I have been thinking a lot about my confidence, and how low it is. I am tired to even think anymore how to be more confident. But I don't also want to keep loathing in this anxiety I have been in for past days. I wouldn't say to my friends, or even strangers the things I say to myself. I don't even think that bad...
Post a Comment
Read more »

Soup beaucoup

-
Image
 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh :) how r u? Today I went to do groceries, how else.. alhamdulillah. Yesterday we had a date night with hubby, had some quality time and I got to eat a whole pizza. Before dinner we walked by the seaside. Today I just stayed the rest of the day at home, and had my guilty pleasures: coffee and mints. It's not gonna be a habit, just a little side quest. Now I'm here, and hubby and Suttis are finally sleeping, so I have time for all of you :)  ... Yesterday's pizza was a nice treat, we hardly eat out or order take out. But today I got the sweetest treat: the first strawberry of the summer. I bought this ready grown plant from the supermarket, and it's already making a lot of berries. Also I fed some of the leaves to Suttis, it's good to broaden his diet even though he's a bit of a picky eater.  Made a nice dinner for myself too, chicken soup. I want to share the recipe because it was so delicious (I also made accidental...
Post a Comment
Read more »

Caring and sharing

-
Image
 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah all :) how are u today? I'm not quite ok, but alhamdulillah. Sometimes my days go wrong even it would've started fine, so here we are. I try to give myself a break and think of something else. So I have some makeup and hair care stuff for you dears :) ... I got my Avril order some weeks ago (? I don't know how time passes.. was it already weeks ago?), the one from the post named  Like one of your French girls . Oh, got my hijabs too! I have forgotten to give you all the details.. So first, I got a volume mascara in shade Marron (brown), and lip oil in shade Nudissime.  The volume mascara has a curved brush, haven't used those before. It works well, but I'd say it gives more of an natural look than a volume look. Might be just me.. but I like the outcome, the natural look looks nice for summertime. I'm anyways more of a natural girl, no shade for anyone who likes a more dramatic or colorful look. I like makeup which stands out, bu...
Post a Comment
Read more »

Deeper but lighter

-
Image
 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah dears :) how have you been? I have had nice time, alhamdulillah. Yesterday one sister asked me to come with her to the mosque, and we also had some coffee after the jummah. Today I finally went to the library, and it was so nice too. I got a brand new library card, and found a good old Stephen King book to spend an afternoon with. And I did. Our ninja turtle spent the whole day at the balcony, and I joined him to read a bit while my pot was simmering on the stove.  ... I continued reading my old blog posts yesterday evening. It was really interesting actually. After I write a post, I hardly come back to it, so it was like I would've read someone else's texts, almost. What I noticed about the posts was that I fight a lot against invisible forces. Like battling with the anxiety and letting myself live freely. For some reason I keep or have kept myself in a cage, and I have tried to get out from it for a while now. I guess everything happens at a ...
Post a Comment
Read more »

Happy eid!

-
Image
 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh all :) how are u? Alhamdulillah, yesterday was important day as it was the day of Arafah. We fasted the day, have to say I was struggling a lot but managed to keep my fast (the hours are pretty long this time of the year, from 2 am to around 10 pm). And then today morning we went together w/hubby to the eid prayer. Mosque was packed like last time but everyone found a prayer spot eventually. After the prayer my husband wanted to gift me flowers, and then we came home and took a nap. Then we just went on our regular things, husband to his own things and I relaxed at home and prepared dinner. A nice day, alhamdulillah.  ... I have had different types of eids. I've spent it alone, I've spent it with people I don't meet anymore, I've spent it with friends, and now these latest ones with the coolness of my eyes :)❤ I do love eid, it starts to feel so familiar and going to the mosque in the morning is a nice event ma sha Allah. M...
2 comments
Read more »

Strawberries

-
Image
 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh :) how's your weekend? I had a nice day today, alhamdulillah. I went to pick up a small package, and then we went out with Suttis. He had a blast, he was going around so strong. He starts to know the area now, and knows where we walk on the pathway and which way to go home. He was climbing and digging, and ate a dandelion. Then we came home and I spent some time enjoying the balcony. I got a strawberry plant from the market and I love it :)  ... Yesterday evening I was reflecting on my past, presence and future, and I was thinking how different events have moulded me as a person. I have thought that falling ill has been the major issue and cause of change in my personality. I've thought I have become so careful and shy, anxious pile of pieces. But yesterday I realized it is not so. Actually a lot of things have happened to me. Now my life is going almost boringly well (alhamdulillah, just a joke), but it hasn't always been the ...
Post a Comment
Read more »