I'm here
Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh :) it's been a while. The weather starts to change. There's a coolness in the air, and it feels good. A wind not too strong, but enough to make the window blinds clatter between the glasses. I haven't felt the best, and I wanted to come back stronger, but this is how it is now. Autumn comes and it brings its blues. And nothing is really wrong, alhamdulillah. It's just the illness having its ups and downs. ... It's like I close those window blinds in the evenings: not when the sun has gone down but before that, when it's set, ready to dive to the horizon. I don't want to finish the day when it's already over, I want to give the benefit of the doubt that maybe the sun won't go down if I'm not watching it. Maybe in a parallel universe, there's a six months summer in Finland, and the darker time takes just a little while. I need to be making art. That's my piece of sanity. I have this bare, white ...