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Dizzy

Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah dears :) how r u? Today's mood has been miscellaneous. My thoughts are restless. But I was able to go to the market, alhamdulillah. Didn't get all what I needed though, so I gotta go again. But anyways! The anxiety might be back so I have to investigate the scene a bit. There's an upcoming event I'd like to attend but it makes me stress so I don't know what to do. This is why it's best I'm only an underground blogger and not a famous influencer because heck, I can't go anywhere! This is frustrating but in sha Allah everything will work out. ... Yeah, mixed feelings and rushing thoughts. I'm all the time somewhere else, meaning future or past, that I find it hard to enjoy things. I spend so much time on imaginary scenarios that I forget it never happened. I create the anxiety in my head by overthinking everyday things. Argh. I try to take control of it by forgetting screens and taking some time to just breathe. And now ...

Souvenir from the swamp

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 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh dears :) how have u been? I had a nice day, alhamdulillah. Went to the jummah prayer, and picked two things from my favorite shop, I tell you more below. I got answers to my little prayers, and hopefully for the bigger ones too. Then I came home through market, we had dinner, and finally it's the time to chat with you guys :) ... So what did I get from the swamp? Hehe. My favorite shop is  Kaurilan sauna . It's located on the same street as my favorite mosque, so two birds with one stone (I don't want to stone birds though, this is not a good saying). They sell all kinds of handmade sweetnesses, like soaps and other cosmetics, cleaning products, all kinds of sauna stuff (like sauna hats!). I bought a deodorant cream and a natural peat face mask (hence the swamp). The deo cream is familiar to me already, I know it works so well even though I'm a stinky and most deodorants won't work for me.. but this does! Unfortunately ...

Chewing gum

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 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah :) how have u been? I had a meeting with my nurse in the morning, then I did some grocery shopping and came home to rest the remaining day. I've been gathering my thoughts and practiced what I preach: I try to enjoy the moment. ... These past two times I've met my nurse I've felt that something is off. And sometimes it's like that. Sometimes I don't also have anything new to say. It's normal to go on a little loop too. Mainly I keep on making my own life difficult by overthinking and being worried, even when I'm not actively anxious. Or I phrased that wrong, it's not me doing the overthinking, it just happens, and even though I can try to gain the control over it, it's not in my hands do I have it or not. But it is truly frustrating when your own mind plays tricks on you. If I strip down all my thoughts and just objectively look at my life, I am so freaking happy, like really. I'm in a good place with everything a...

Sunny side up

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh all :) how's your weekend been? I slept late today, only woke up to hubby making sounds in kitchen, meaning breakfast. I just had some tea. I'm not actually a breakfast person, but often I try to eat something in the mornings because it's the healthy way. But really I'm more of a brunch person - my stomach needs some time to wake up too so brunch time is ideal.  I went for a walk, found some new routes. My circles here are very small, I used to walk in the forest but now when I want to know our surroundings better, it's a bit trickier to find good places. I love a good loop, in sha Allah I'll find one. Went to market too, to pick few things. Ziaja day and night cream, some magnesium pills, earbuds, candy, yoghurt, cheese. A bit random. Then came home and had my brunch: hot cocoa and cheese sandwiches, yum.  ... The sunshine does so much, ma sha Allah. Instantly more energetic and feeling like going out. I have to st...

Back to sences

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 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh :) how r u today? I had a little shopping round. I went to pick a book from library, then I used my gift card at Tokmanni, and then I bought socks and food at the supermarket, and picked my Limepop order on my way home. Alhamdulillah. I got some supplies for my art project (or it's more like a diary project but anyways), some snacks and also gloves now when the weather is turning cold. I feel like I have plenty and I only used 20 euros so all in all, a good trip. ... My Limepop order contained four things: almond oil, castor oil, glycerine and frankincense essential oil. The frankinsence oil is produced in Somalia, that's nice. It's new for me, and I didn't know what to expect. I was pleasantly surprised when I realized frankincense is a type of resin. So it has a nice, fresh scent with a hint of lavender or some herb. Beautiful, nice scent. It also has great healing qualities, especially treating aging skin. It also reliev...

Dates, tea and wishes granted

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh all :) how's your week started? I had one appointment today, and after that I did some grocery shopping. I bought yoghurt and frozen blueberries, and I can tell you that nothing tastes better right now! With a drizzle of honey of course. I also bought my favorite flavored dates, tastes like cinnamon rolls, and I enjoy them now with a cup of silver tea. Husband sleeping, only the plates are calling me to come and wash them, but I postpone it because I need a bit of time for myself first. ... I consider myself so lucky. Before I was a muslim, I prayed occasionally, but after I started calling God Allah, I saw how my prayers came true, one by one. It's a bit funny because Allah means just the God in English, so basically it was the same thing. But maybe I had more clearer idea, which kind of deity I was calling. And Allah is the greatest. As muslims we know that Allah has 99 names/attributes, which describe for us how He is like. You ...

October berry

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Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh dears :) how are u? I have had some health issues, nothing dramatic but enough to keep me sunken in the sofa. That's why I haven't written anything, just been trying to manage. But alhamdulillah, I feel now a bit better so we get to chat again :) how are u doing, how's your weekend going? ... I have a strawberry plant on the balcony. I bought it from the supermarket in the start of summer, and ma sha Allah it very kindly gave me a fresh strawberry every now and then. What I didn't expect, is that it still keeps giving and is making more strawberries in the late month of October.. I'm not sure can it make a ripe berry but we'll see. It's been a very warm autumn, only now these days we get some cold air. The cold feels good. I had been inside the whole day so I went to do the grocery shopping already which I planned for tomorrow, so I got a taste of the coolness and it felt so good. Summer is beautiful, but I like ...