Cup of tea with Aisha

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah 🌱 I feel better, alhamdulillah. But it has been hard, and probably will still be. I start to feel more at home in my kinda new apartment. I noticed that I easily root into places. And I've noticed I also need more time for changes than I thought. Once I settle then, I settle well in sha Allah. ... I love autumn, and it feels more like a start of a new year than January. Everything fades in the nature, to make room for new ideas. I love the rainy weather compared to a warm and cozy home. It's a countdown for the winter. It's time to decorate my home and create a warm nest ☺ alhamdulillah. I feel peaceful. How do you feel about the autumn time? Let me know in the comment section. I hope you all are fine, A

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah ☺ Patience has been the word to describe my past weeks and days. I'm not ok at all. I think about my marriage every day, and can it still be saved. I've been patient, but sad, just very sad for a long time now. Alhamdulillah, and in sha Allah things will still take a turn to what is best for me and us.  Trust me, this laptop is driving me nuts too. So slow... I got a new battery for it but this is slow like a snail. And I can't say I love snails, even if they never bothered me. Sorry mr. and mrs. Snail. ... What helps me in this madness, is good coping mechanisms. I write a journal almost every day, where I can just say all the things in my mind without too much of a filter. I have this bleg  blog, for a better articulation and possible benefit for others. And I write a novel, slowly but surely in sha Allah, to just let my creativity flow. And that's just writing.  I also eat a ton of chewing gum every day, then exercise a little, enj...

Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh everyone. How are you doing?    I have been lost. You know why? Well.. this year has been a lot harder. Harder than usually, I feel like it needs that definition. But back to the point, I might as well tell that my marriage is in crisis and it has been like balancing on the blade of a sword. Stay together, or break apart - and that has been aching my heart.  ...    Breathing in, breathing out. I have felt so bad these days that sometimes breathing is all I can do. But what happened? It has been difficult. I dont recommend a long distance relationship because the distance can be eventually too much, like it seems to be in our case. This tears me apart. But I have to stay strong and just carry on.  ...    Today I moved some furniture around and now my kitchen looks really nice, alhamdulillah. Living room is kinda empty but in sha Allah I will fix that soon. I made a beef omelette. Oh, and I met one...