Cup of tea with Aisha

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah all :) how are you? Yeah. I've decided to love myself again. There's changes coming and happening.. I'm moving soon in sha Allah, and I've taken more steps to gain that beautiful serenity and peace of mind. Well, in reality I also can't sleep, I haven't been able to do so many months now. I also had an anxiety attack today, but minus those small inconveniences, I'm doing just fine. No worries. ... I have so much love to give and I've decided to give it to myself. And friends and family too, but mainly I try now to give myself what I have been deprived from for so long time. Who will love me if I don't? Let me tell you, it's scammers, abusers and all their lovely friends. So I have to love and value myself and let it shine through, so that the right person can see that. And also just do it for myself and not to anybody really. I will start to post more, in sha Allah. I have lot of things I want to talk about. And I...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh. How are you doing? New year, same situation, I guess. At least what's going on in the world. But we can't give up. I can't give up. ... Christmas and New year can be difficult time to people. There has been so much going on.. I am doing fine, alhamdulillah. I have my own tests to carry and I know how letting things go can be so painful. In some cases it is also freeing.  ... What has given me strength, is definitely my friends, old and new ones. We gathered together one evening and had so good time that in sha Allah it will help me carry on for months. I'm also waiting for one my friend to come over for the weekend, it's so nice to have company. Because I have been frustrated, lonely, taken for granted, lonely again, and my period is coming in sha Allah, so it helps when someone can just be there with me and distract a bit.. :) ... I'm sorry because I don't know what to write. I want to write about happy things...