10 years of faith

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh all :) how's your week?

Today I didn't do much, just relaxed. I did organize our home a bit, found some items to donate. Lit a candle and changed clean clothes. Sometimes days are like this, sometimes I do more. Alhamdulillah for everything. My mood is good tho.

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I was thinking to write about this topic a little later this month, but heck, I am an early girl (or early worm), some things don't change. Always early and everything happen beforehand so here it goes.

I have been a muslim for ten years. Ten years guys. 

Ten years of hoping for better. And seeing the better happen, so many times, alhamdulillah. I mean, I believed in the better day even before I was a muslim but it has become the goal since I said my shahada.

I've been cooked in all kinds of broths, as we say in Finland, but only islam has been able to give me everything in my life what I have needed, including this beautiful relationship I have now. Islam saved my life, no doubt. Islam gave me the frames in life that I know I can always hold on to, and know I'll be fine. 

There has been also times that I have still been feeling very lost and alone. Like looking to the stars knowing that's where your home is, but you have no idea how you could ever get there. But my faith never wavered because God has always been there for me. So I tried to show up for Him, no matter in what situation I was. Sometimes it was just a desperate dua. 

I have tasted victory too. My faith has helped me to move mountains and leap to heights I didn't know I could reach. Sometimes I even wonder myself that has it really been me, like did I really do these things? 

I have been addicted, I have loved, I have survived. I have cried, I have felt I can't go on, but I have succeeded.

I am a muslim.

And I'm grown as a muslim.

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And still I do sin, I have hard days and times, my life is not perfect at all. But alhamdulillah, how thankful I am.

Maybe I have become more relaxed with my practicing too. I do my best, I don't guilt trip myself for not being good enough. I don't anymore set unreachable goals to myself. My life is still filled with islam, but it's more about the simple life and simple things. Now it comes from inside, alhamdulillah.

It's so important to believe that the help of Allah is near. And that He will give us what we pray for. And that we are in good hands. Just have to do our part, which is actually quite simple, Allah doesn't ask too much. 

And it's important to try. To get better and do better. To move forward every day. We will still sin and make mistakes. But we are here to become more like our higher selves, not to feast on the life of this temporary world. We all share the destiny together, we can't escape it and it ties us all with an unbreakable bond, we want it or not.

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It's actually hard to write about this subject. I think of you, dear readers, and I wonder are you muslims or non-muslims. I mean, you are so welcome to follow anyways, but I am just thinking that how I could tell about islam in a way that I could make you interested. It's just when I think of Allah and my faith in Him, and our Prophet Muhammad and all the teachings of islam, my heart just fills with emotions and I feel like my words can never express how I truly feel. Only I can say: read. Read about islam, read everything that interests you or concerns you. Be critical when finding information online and otherwise. Ask questions and question your own beliefs, also question islam's teachings. Read about fitrah. It's basically your intuition but so much better :) Take time to think and ponder about these things.

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I want to say it's getting late, but it actually is not.. but I've been going to bed kinda early now. So I hope you all have had a nice day and if not today, then tomorrow in sha Allah. :)

Next time then,

Aisha