Cup of tea with Aisha

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah all :) how are you? Yeah. I've decided to love myself again. There's changes coming and happening.. I'm moving soon in sha Allah, and I've taken more steps to gain that beautiful serenity and peace of mind. Well, in reality I also can't sleep, I haven't been able to do so many months now. I also had an anxiety attack today, but minus those small inconveniences, I'm doing just fine. No worries. ... I have so much love to give and I've decided to give it to myself. And friends and family too, but mainly I try now to give myself what I have been deprived from for so long time. Who will love me if I don't? Let me tell you, it's scammers, abusers and all their lovely friends. So I have to love and value myself and let it shine through, so that the right person can see that. And also just do it for myself and not to anybody really. I will start to post more, in sha Allah. I have lot of things I want to talk about. And I...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh. How are you doing? New year, same situation, I guess. At least what's going on in the world. But we can't give up. I can't give up. ... Christmas and New year can be difficult time to people. There has been so much going on.. I am doing fine, alhamdulillah. I have my own tests to carry and I know how letting things go can be so painful. In some cases it is also freeing.  ... What has given me strength, is definitely my friends, old and new ones. We gathered together one evening and had so good time that in sha Allah it will help me carry on for months. I'm also waiting for one my friend to come over for the weekend, it's so nice to have company. Because I have been frustrated, lonely, taken for granted, lonely again, and my period is coming in sha Allah, so it helps when someone can just be there with me and distract a bit.. :) ... I'm sorry because I don't know what to write. I want to write about happy things...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah everyone! :) How have you been doing? I'm alright, alhamdulillah. I haven't wrote now so frequently due to the humanitarian crisis in Palestine. I feel like I should do more and I have been so frustrated to see the news and then not be able to help. Still we need to keep on boycotting and donating etc. I think like many people say, the boycotts will be permanent. In sha Allah. I am going to my mom's place for holidays. It comes in the best time now, alhamdulillah. I need to charge my batteries. ... I tend to give so much from myself and I wonder do people see what I am doing.. it comes with the frustration. I would want to be able to do so much more. But helping can be so bittersweet sometimes. I do my best and.. I don't always get the love in return. It has been like this for my whole life. It makes me sad but then I get up again. I dunno if I'm just a drama queen.. but everyone needs to receive some love too. It's been kinda ha...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh everyone. How have you been? I am doing ok alhamdulillah, just right now I have a flu, probably Covid, and honestly I feel so ill. There has been a lot of flu going on, Covid also. In sha Allah it will pass soon. Otherwise, my life is going easy easy and lemon squeezy. I have set my life aside what comes to this blog, I feel like right now due to the current genoside(s) going on, it would be inappropriate to write about basically anything else.  ... We still need to boycott and give to charity. And pray. I honestly feel frustrated because I don't know what I could personally do more.. but I just trust that the boycott and sadaqah is enough. I've been praying victory for Gazza ever since.  But I understand it gets tiring. Sometimes I just can't look at the news. I feel helpless. But same time, I am sitting in my warm home with warm clothes, warm food, friends and family. So I really hope I could do something more. ... People j...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh. How are you? I am stressing about some personal issues, so can't sleep. So, I'm making a cup of coffee, planning to stay up all night. And go market in the morning. I have the luxury to take a nap later, so staying up tonight is not a problem. This happens for me sometimes, I just have to stay awake all night. Night is good time for writing, as I feel a bit more creative. The vibe is different and the stimulation of outside world has shut down. ... What would I write then? I want to write about Palestine, I want to write about Sudan, Congo.. Afghanistan. Kashmir, Uighur muslims, Rohingya sisters and brothers.. Yemen, Syria. And more, that I know or don't, yet. The world is burning because of Western democracy, which means white supremacy and colonization. Certain countries supporting each other in this atrocity. Even Finland, a nordic, "real democracy", the "happiest country in the world", is delivering gun...

Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah everyone. How are you? I'm alright, alhamdulillah. I have a meeting with my doctor tomorrow in sha Allah, and a weekend ahead with no plans.. maybe I do something, maybe not. I am having a lack of motivation. It probably is the changing season, it gets so dark now so early. Today we had Maghreb here at 16:08. Alhamdulillah still. I'm planning to make up my fasts from last Ramadan soon in sha Allah.  ... The situation is Palestine is getting worse and worse. Last information I saw was Bisan, telling that 'Israeli' troops are 1-2 kilometers away. The coming night might get so violent, as it has been already unbearable. I trust Allah has a plan. And in bigger picture, this life is only a test and this is not our final destination. The children, murdered brutally, are now running in Jannah and they finally feel no pain.  But we must keep on going with the prayers, boycotts, donations. I am so proud of everyone who go and march together for th...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah everyone. How are you? I'm doing alright, alhamdulillah. I've been just living my life. Of course, I've been following daily the war in Gaza, thinking what could I do more. ... So when I was a young and idealistic hippie, I used to boycott different, multi-national companies. My boycott wasn't linked into any specific events, but it was an overall act against capitalism.  Then, time passed and I got more sick and then, surviving midst of it all was basically all I could do. I thought I'd have made my life easier without being so "strict" so I quit being a vegetarian and I basically bought and consumed what I wanted. Started buying clothes from actual stores instead of second hand shops and flea markets. But through time I started to miss my ways and my idealism. Now, with a bit more mature eyes, the situation hasn't changed much. We have more green or green-washed brands, more vegetarian meat alternatives in markets, an...