Cup of tea with Aisha

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh dears :) how's your weekend been? Alhamdulillah. I have had a nice day with hubby. We went out for a long walk, ended it with a market trip and I got myself some candy. Then we have just been hanging out and relaxing. Now I have some me-time and came to chat to you guys :) It feels like forever since I wrote my blog last time. Was it Monday? ... So I sit in my kitchen office, and think that things really don't go like planned. Some things do though. And Allah's plan is the best. I have found some trust, some tawakkul to ease my way and it feels good, alhamdulillah. I was willing to take bigger steps, but maybe the small ones suit me better, at least for now. I'm gonna start again going to groups as a part of psychophysical physiotherapy. I'm reasonably excited. The first group is gonna be Asahi group. Asahi  is movement for body and mind, a method of excercise. To be honest, I don't know much about it, but it's ...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah all :) how are u? I changed my plans and decided to stay home today. I have had less anxiety but today my plans gave me too much extra heartbeat, so in sha Allah tomorrow will be a better day. Maybe it's intuition too, it just wasn't a good day for those plans. Oh, what plans? Just a little thing, I tell you later :) ... I'm having a cup of green tea, next to my healthy diet plans. It's so easy to go astray, I like my sugary treats, mints, cheese, snacks... but now it has to go. I'm fine with my current weight, maybe losing 2-3 kg would be ideal for me. I'm not trying to get slimmer, because I feel like this weight suits me the best, I haven't always been happy with my mirror image but now I'm fine with it, alhamdulillah. But I want to take better care of my body. I'm tired of hormonal issues, like hormonal acne. So mainly I just want to be more mindful about my overall health and what kind of fuel I give for my body....

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah dears :) how have u been? This time I don't have pictures. But the setting is familiar, I'm sitting at the kitchen table with my laptop, tea cup next to me, and news to tell. :) ... I haven't made up my mind yet, is this good news or bad news, but I didn't get chosen to the school. Or the next step, the interview, I didn't have enough points. Well, I was a bit sad about it, but same time a bit relieved.  I have few other options I could do, and can think more. Maybe I will meet an occupational therapist and physiotherapist and talk about the possibilities I have.  The freedom feels good, but the future visions are blurred. In my situation, I'm somewhat of an outcast of the society, but I wish not to be one. I have a mental illness and I'm living way below the average wage. But I refuse these labels to define me. I am so much more and I could do more than now. But what will it be, time will tell. ... I'm having a day off t...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah dears :) how's things? Today I went to pick some melt&pour shampoo mass, made the shampoo block and did some other crafts. It has been kinda productive day, alhamdulillah. All time spent away from phone is good. ... Today we go with pics, no text :)  ... Alhamdulillah. Next time a new subject in sha Allah. Until then, Aisha

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah all :) how are u? I have been enjoying home life past days. Not that I don't do it always, but I mean I have been doing what I like best: organizing, minimizing, decorating.. We don't have much decorations, partly because we don't have place for them and partly because we wanna keep it that way. But there's always little changes that can be made.  ... I have been a kind of a minimalist for some years now. Maybe since 2015? That was a year of big changes in my life. I moved to the capitol, Helsinki, started working, started my life. Before the move, I reverted to islam. After I moved and some time passed, I divorced from the toxic marriage I was in. It wasn't even a real marriage though, but anyways. Many things changed. I finally got clean from smoking weed. I started to improve my life in every way possible. I decorated my home nicely and it was my pride and a safe haven. I don't really remember how I was introduced to minimalis...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh dears :) how's your week going? I'll mark today, 20th of August, as the head start to autumn. I know, we still have sunshine and warmth, but there is a cool tone in the wind which never lies. I wore today wool socks and a cardigan for the first time. Took a blanket from the closet and a clean sheet. Hoovered the house. A clean slate. ... Part of me hopes now that I don't get selected into the school. I feel it's a lot, and maybe I can't manage. But, this might be a temporary thought, so I don't give up just yet. Of course it feels so much easier to let go of the thought and "free" myself from the burden of anxiety, which the new possible situation brings. But there's room for growth too and I think I would actually enjoy the school. In sha Allah. What happens, will be for the best. I will hear about the next phase on 29th this month.  ... I've drank a lot of tea and soon gonna make some talbina too...