Cup of tea with Aisha

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah dears :) how has your week started? I had today the group I'm attending, the movement and relaxation one. I didn't go last week, didn't feel like it at all so I decided to pass. But it was good to go there today, it is definitely relaxing and I learn something new every time about my anxiety, and my body too. I noticed today that now when I have been going to the gym, my body is able to relax better. I don't get anxiety from moving, it feels natural and good. I didn't think I'd see results already, both the gym and the group, so alhamdulillah I am happy to get stronger. For those who wonder that who has to practice relaxing, well yeah I know it sounds silly but I guess mostly us who have struggled with mental health and trauma, have to learn some basic skills later in life. Alhamdulillah for these kind of groups that are accessible. ... One of the things I like about my husband is that he's into minimalism too. So, today was ...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh all :) Third night of Ramadan, how's it going?   Evenings are peaceful. Alhamdulillah. I'm having some tea and candy. I am kinda on a diet, was before Ramadan too, but I let myself have a treat at the weekends.  (It's hard to write when a little dinosaur is trying to bite your toes..) Today I slept a bit more, I mean I woke up at 4 a.m. to make some porridge but then after breakfast went back to sleep, so I slept until 10 o'clock. Then went to market, made chicken soup for iftaar, and after that I went to gym. How easy it is to achieve things when not procrastinating.. Food is a distraction. A necessity, sure, these days even a privilege. But I always see this at Ramadan time, I apparently spend so much time eating..? I just have so much more time while fasting. How about you, you see this too? ... So yes, these first days are relatively easy because I fasted those days I had to make up from last year just these few weeks e...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh everyone :) how are u doing? I'm moody and feeling so low about myself. I blame it solely on hormones.. and actually as I have been following my cycle more keenly for the past few months, I really see the patterns. I use Flo app, I find it very versatile. It was actually my occupational therapist who asked me have I thought my anxiety could be partly hormonal, and yes, it is.  But alhamdulillah, everything is fine. I do feel good generally speaking, these are just a little bit moody days on my way.   ... It's the time before Ramadan, the very eve of it in sha Allah. More and more close we have come to it, more and more the sheyateen, the devils, try to make us lose hope and trip, as they want to sabotage our blessings. So if you feel like you are not on the right mood, because things have been happening, don't worry. You are not alone with this experience. Don't also worry if you can't fast for some reason. These situat...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah :) how's your Saturday? Today wasn't clearly my day. Every small thing went wrong. Things like going to market without my bag (and bank card and keys). And I cried already one time. My husband is patient person alhamdulillah.. But I also did go to gym in the morning and had a good workout. And managed to go to the market then after all like a normal person. And then I've been home just relaxing, safely at home. Maybe tomorrow is easier in sha Allah. ... That's how the everyday life is. Can't win always, not even every time as we say here in Finland. But I'm so happy still how everything has turned out. Things are so.. how to say again. Regular? In a good way. We are low income people nicely said, so we don't talk about trips to Malibu or buying a second home, but we can talk about getting a new sofa from the flea market and eat delicious home cooked meals. We have begun to know each other much better and I'm so happy we c...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh :) how are you? I woke up in the morning very tired, could have slept all day.. didn't feel so good but my husband saved the situation by taking us for an one and half hour walk. Then I just cooked a simple dinner with yesterday's leftovers and today's blessings and after that, just relaxing. Alhamdulillah. I actually have now blisters in my feet.. ... Not much has happened or even has been on my mind. The psychiatric physiotherapy group I'm attending to might just start to work. In the group, we start with movement and then proceed to relaxation. And last time I noticed that when my mind, note not only my body but my mind too, is relaxed, it will automatically cut off the anxious thoughts. And I don't know have I felt such feeling for a while, I mean the very literal peace of mind. Now that I've noticed it, I might be able to practice it more. In sha Allah. But there is some news: we did sign a new rent contract an...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh all :) how was your weekend? I have been kinda busy. Past days I have been either fasting or going to gym, and then doing the regular chores. It's like I can do only one thing a day, or normally it has been so.. now I have become more active and I feel like I also have more hours in a day, alhamdulillah. Not all my spare time will go to recovering for what I have been doing. It really shows that I have gotten past the worst anxiety, at least for now, ma sha Allah. I want to take all the extra energy and comfortableness and make it work for me this while in sha Allah. ... I am now 36 years old, and I (we) don't have children. Yet..? This is a topic that brings me sadness. Because I have wanted to become a mom for some time now. I think when I was in my twenties, I wasn't really ready and definitely didn't have the type of life or relationship that would have been stabile enough to bring a new person in the world. Actually al...