Cup of tea with Aisha

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh dears :) how's your week started? I am well slept but also endlessly tired. I got my monthly dose of medicine yesterday and one of the side effects is tiredness. I'm talking about went-to-sleep-at-eight-and-woke-up-at-ten-the-next-day sleepiness.. I feel all the time that I just want to sleep, and then the sleep doesn't actually even help. I just need to push through few days and it will pass in sha Allah. ... Everything is fine, alhamdulillah. Something I have been thinking past days, is scars and how to deal with them. Not talking about Bio oil, but more of acceptance. I had a nice little chat with a nurse yesterday, and she said that I seem to be so fine with my illness. And I guess it is so. What comes to the illness, traumas, break ups, losses.. just have to accept things how they are. I also try to make an effort to accept myself daily, what comes to my body, my flaws, my shortcomings.. because only so few things are chan...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah dear readers :) how's your week going? I am doing fine alhamdulillah, thanks for asking, lol, not many ask actually. I always ask everybody and disappoint every time a bit when they answer just "fine". Like please, tell me everything, let's drink tea and chat. Well anyways, I've had some appointments, also time home and with my spouse, hair curling up, and little turtle boy still sleeping. I think I should be more fine than I'm feeling, but there's many reasons why things feel a bit difficult. ... I have met occupational therapist, physiotherapist and today an experience expert (kokemusasiantuntija?). It was a nice talk, don't know was it so groundbreaking but it was helpful. It confirmed my thoughts about not going back to work yet, and just focusing on myself now a while, as long as it is needed. They try to help me, with getting me into groups and finding alternative ways to spend my days, get some peer support etc. ...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh all :) How are u? It's been some days.. I've been thinking to write many times, but I kinda.. I dunno. I have took some more time here on the mountain and also, I haven't been alone (!). ... I'm really, really, really happy :) alhamdulillah. Say Allaahumma barik! I'm living now with my tech support, haha. It's been great to just spend time together. He is a gentleman and taking good care of me, alhamdulillah. I know I've been married already before now couple times, so that's why I wanted to keep this to myself. But if I failed before, everything has a reason behind. I feel now that things have went in a good, slow steady pace and just generally in right way . I feel like I'm in a real marriage now for the first time. Not going to get into the details but just generally I am so happy and feel very content and appreciative, alhamdulillah. :) ... So yes, things happening and life moving forward.. I have al...