Gratitude journal

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh all :) how have u been doing?

Finally I'm here actually with a cup of tea. Ma sha Allah. Well, I feel more grounded and good, alhamdulillah, so maybe this is a blessing from Allah. Or not even maybe, it is. Subhan Allah.

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I used to keep a gratitude journal, or not, let's say I used to make few posts here on or my personal journal about the things I am grateful of, every now and then. Today I remembered it, and I decided to start a gratitude journal. I did what I usually do to my poor notebook, miraculously still alive somehow, I rip all the used pages off into little pieces and start anew. I didn't write yet, I'm taking time for it later tonight in sha Allah, but I already can feel more gratitude comforting my heart. 

I am grateful of so many things, specifically said about everything, hehe, maybe that is what the feeling causes. Really like if I wouldn't struggle with my mental health so much, I feel I would be the luckiest girl. Nothing even matters that much when I feel such gratefulness. Not my low income, I feel like I have plenty. Not my loneliness, I feel like Allah swt is with me and of course He's given me a great guy as a spouse. My mental health issues don't matter cos I am somewhat healthy, I can move my body and live without physical pain. We have a badass pet that makes us laugh every day. Sun is shining even though this was a really gray day and time. I got my medicine to go to take tomorrow, even though pharmacies start to have empty shelfs what comes to it. 

Of course especially what comes to money, more is more. But also I feel like not having so much currency makes one to really be patient and withhold desires to get this and that. And it frees from the cycle that one must be constantly "bettering" their life. My life is fine, thanks :) alhamdulillah. And we have food every day. Only that I would like to donate more to charity.. but even 5 euros is easily spareable.

It's a mindset. Maybe we all, grown in capitalistic system, have been programmed to have a desire and love for luxury and high life, always more something. I don't know, maybe it's just me. But when you have little, the luxuries change. You might get a new hair conditioner from the market. Or you can buy new curtains which will change the whole vibe of your living room and make you happy every time you see it. 

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Gratitude and worship go hand in hand. I have been a bit disconnected lately, which seems to ease now but I still struggle with it. So what if I just work on my mindset? When I do chores, for example washing plates, I take every item and think what did I do with it while cooking or having dinner. And think how I am happy to have such nice meal, enough plates and things and a nice husband to share the dinner with. We are not a big family, just us two, but I want to serve Allah swt by serving my family. I'm thankful of my spouse, so I want to help him, and also let him help me. 

Gratitude also means we are content with Allah's plan.

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Well, I kinda want to reflect more and start the actual gratitude journal, so I leave you in these thoughts.

Im grateful of you readers too! Have a nice week, we'll meet again at the weekend in sha Allah.

So later then,

Aisha