Cup of tea with Aisha

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah dears :) how have u been? This time I don't have pictures. But the setting is familiar, I'm sitting at the kitchen table with my laptop, tea cup next to me, and news to tell. :) ... I haven't made up my mind yet, is this good news or bad news, but I didn't get chosen to the school. Or the next step, the interview, I didn't have enough points. Well, I was a bit sad about it, but same time a bit relieved.  I have few other options I could do, and can think more. Maybe I will meet an occupational therapist and physiotherapist and talk about the possibilities I have.  The freedom feels good, but the future visions are blurred. In my situation, I'm somewhat of an outcast of the society, but I wish not to be one. I have a mental illness and I'm living way below the average wage. But I refuse these labels to define me. I am so much more and I could do more than now. But what will it be, time will tell. ... I'm having a day off t...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah dears :) how's things? Today I went to pick some melt&pour shampoo mass, made the shampoo block and did some other crafts. It has been kinda productive day, alhamdulillah. All time spent away from phone is good. ... Today we go with pics, no text :)  ... Alhamdulillah. Next time a new subject in sha Allah. Until then, Aisha

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah all :) how are u? I have been enjoying home life past days. Not that I don't do it always, but I mean I have been doing what I like best: organizing, minimizing, decorating.. We don't have much decorations, partly because we don't have place for them and partly because we wanna keep it that way. But there's always little changes that can be made.  ... I have been a kind of a minimalist for some years now. Maybe since 2015? That was a year of big changes in my life. I moved to the capitol, Helsinki, started working, started my life. Before the move, I reverted to islam. After I moved and some time passed, I divorced from the toxic marriage I was in. It wasn't even a real marriage though, but anyways. Many things changed. I finally got clean from smoking weed. I started to improve my life in every way possible. I decorated my home nicely and it was my pride and a safe haven. I don't really remember how I was introduced to minimalis...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh dears :) how's your week going? I'll mark today, 20th of August, as the head start to autumn. I know, we still have sunshine and warmth, but there is a cool tone in the wind which never lies. I wore today wool socks and a cardigan for the first time. Took a blanket from the closet and a clean sheet. Hoovered the house. A clean slate. ... Part of me hopes now that I don't get selected into the school. I feel it's a lot, and maybe I can't manage. But, this might be a temporary thought, so I don't give up just yet. Of course it feels so much easier to let go of the thought and "free" myself from the burden of anxiety, which the new possible situation brings. But there's room for growth too and I think I would actually enjoy the school. In sha Allah. What happens, will be for the best. I will hear about the next phase on 29th this month.  ... I've drank a lot of tea and soon gonna make some talbina too...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah dears :) how has your week been? I just had an evening snack/supper (iltapala) and made a nice cup of tea. Alhamdulillah. How are u? ♥ I hope you had a nice day. I did, I walked way too long to pick a small package that was delivered to an alternative post office. Came back home via market, cooked and then had dinner etc with hubby. He is so sweet ma sha Allah, he brought me some coconut cookies. :)  ... I am not very good with changes. Or let's say that changes take time with me. Usually at first, I'm very flexible and everything is ok, until it kinda hits me and I take a 180 degree turn. Then it passes, and I'm happy or at least content with the new situation. Well, latest change was moving to a new apartment and area in May this year. It's been bit more than three months now, and I start to feel good and at home. This area also has been both nice to me, but with some challenges too. There's seemingly less muslims living in this ar...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh all :) how are u doing? I had a nice day with a friend. We went for some coffee and after that to a flea market. Nice :) the weather was great for a little walk. After that I obviously came home, cooked nice jollof this time alhamdulillah, and then we've been just relaxing. Suttis, the ninja turtle, is sleeping a lot, today he went to sleep in the corner at 2.30 pm and has been there all day, that's what he does nowadays. Just a small stroll around his territories and then sleep. I take him back to his enclosure around ten pm, and he slowly walks into his little cardboard hut. He's so precious ma sha Allah. And he adores my husband, he never tries to bite him. Sometimes I see him even laying down and admiring my hubby from a distance :D ma sha Allah, so cute. Then I'm the one he wants to play with, climb on, and bite, bite and bite. Well, anyways, alhamdulillah, it has been a nice day. ... I got news from the school, so exc...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah dears :) how have you been? I'm sorry I forgot to write earlier this week.. I thought I wrote on Monday so I just stayed in that thought and didn't check. Well, Wednesday I went to take my medicine so I have been just extra tired since. I haven't worked out, haven't also stuck in my diet, but that's how it goes sometimes. I have only went to market every day, I don't know also how that situation happened too. Alhamdulillah. Now I try to gain energy to start again. I have some ice tea and talbina to help the writing process.. (picture from another day) ... I have been a bit sad too, maybe that's why I haven't found the energy. I've needed the rest. And the time to think too. I feel like I'm losing all my friends, one by one. This seems so alarming. The reason is, I don't even know. I have just noticed that usually I am not as important to the other person than they are to me. And I feel that then on the other h...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh dears :) how have u been? Laptop, charged. Phone, charged. Time to sit down with you and have some tea. :) ... The heat wave has slowed down everything, including rational thinking, but here we are now, in August. Schools are starting next week, some still have their summer holiday, but we all are getting slowly back to normal routine unlike birds who start to plan their move to warmer places, never letting go of summer. I just started getting comfortable with this summer weather, as things take time with me, but I also welcome autumn as well. I'm still waiting on the process of entrance exams to the school I applied to. It takes time, and the studying would start on November in sha Allah, so I have to wait still. First they will send us some questionnaire, which leads to interviews, if you're lucky. And from the interviews they choose the new students. So it's very unsure yet. I have also gotten comfortable of my free time thi...