Humble

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh all :) how's your weekend been?

It's the fifth, or actually the sixth of Ramadan now, as it's past maghrib time. It's been nice, alhamdulillah, days have passed quite quickly and I've had things to do every day. Iftaars have been delicious. Humble, but good, alhamdulillah. Right now I have my tea, and some time to spend with you dears :)

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This year I've definitely catched the Ramadan spirit. It hasn't been like that every year though. When I reverted, Ramadan was at summer, meaning 22 hour fasts here in the North. I was also struggling with addiction. I tried, of course, but stumbled. I had very lonely Ramadans, but it did strengthen my faith. Fast forward to this day, I feel so happy and blessed that I was steadfast during all the harder times, it pays off now. And the wintertime is like an extra blessing, because we have like what, 12 hour fasting time now, and it feels easy. And it's not only about the fasting, I'm really happy that I've been patient in the past, for the future me. 

Back to the Ramadan spirit. It probably means as many things as there are muslims. But if I would summarize this feel I have in a few words, I would say

* happy

* light

* humble

* grateful

* joyful

♡ 

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Ramadan is not easy for everyone. It's good to remember also all of them in our prayers who are struggling with their fast, or with the reality that they can't fast. Or, they can't even break their fast. 

If I've learned something in my phase rich life, is that things change. And things may take quick turns to anything. Life is unpredictable, even if it would be stable for now. But what makes it comforting is that even at your lowest, there's a possibility that in a minute, hour, week or a year, the whole situation might look very different. And better. I often forget to remember that things might turn out so well too. I'm kinda learning that now. Usually I just worry, worry and worry myself to a very anxious state. There's the other way too. The way where it's not perfect, but fruitful, and even happy one day.

The power of du'aa is endless. Don't be shy praying for your Maker. You can ask anything you want. Allah swt will give for you what He knows is good for you. 

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Tomorrow I'm gonna take a day off. I have laundry shift in the morning, and after that I will just relax and  read, in sha Allah. I want to read my Ramadan pamphlet and refresh my memory, and I also have another book to finish. I'm not a much of a reader, I used to be though when I was a kid. Nowadays it takes time.

Then Tuesday I have the anxiety group. I was pleasantly surprised, I think we have a really good group going on, so I'm excited to see where it goes. Then later on the week I try to get some work shifts, and soon it's weekend again. In sha Allah. 

Now I'm gonna make another cup of tea and maybe have a snack or few dates or something. I hope you are doing fine and well, and if not, that's ok too. May Allah ease your path and guide us all to better times and ways.

Later then,

Aisha