Last days

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 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah :) how's your week going?


I had some work today, alhamdulillah. Came home, had a shower and prayed my prayers. We had our dinner and now we've both been relaxing. Last days of Ramadan, huh? These last ten days felt heavier but also passed by so fast.


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Yeah, I'm not gonna lie, I've been struggling these last ten days. I feel like I'm so drained and I can't do anything I was supposed to do. Also I crave for sugar so intensely, that I haven't been able to keep my diet like I wanted to. 

Setbacks happen. I'm disappointed in myself, but I also know it could be worse so.. alhamdulillah for everything. I try to make at least some du'aas and trust in Allah swt that He sees my effort.

And Eid is just around the corner. I want it to be a happy celebration. I also want to teach myself think more positively instead of this constant worrying, so maybe I could list some achievements from this Ramadan. I hope it resonates with you too, if you have had the same feeling of being a bit of an underdog.

So I have:

- I have not used any intoxicants, not even regular mints

- I haven't given up hope

- I have lost my temper only once, and I made tawba about it

- I have prayed some taraweeh prayers

- I have fasted steadfastly

- I have taken care of my body with some exercise

- I have been gentle and easygoing to myself, merciful even

- I've had some work shifts and managed to do my work well

- I haven't needed to take any extra medicine and break my fast


Wow. That's actually a long list of things. I could maybe still add a few more. How would your list look like?


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I actually feel a bit better now. Make a list too! You will surely see the effort you've made ♡

This is what I need. Positive and good. I don't need to always look everything on such a realistic sense. A sprinkle of delulu and an optimistic look at things can be much lighter way of life.

And Eid ♡ I've had so different Eids. Spent alone, spent with friends. Spent with spouse. Spent in women's clinic too, one Eid day.. in Finland, also travelling. I have good memories. Ramadan is a deeply spiritual month and even though we celebrate the end of it, it's also like a fresh start to another year. So it won't be over just yet, it's only the beginning of another path again.


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So with these thoughts, I leave you to enjoy the last few days of Ramadan. May Allah swt accept it from me and you and us all. 





Aisha


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