Mixed feelings but good vibes

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah :) how are u doing?

Today has been good. We went to post a little present for my niece, and picked up some bananas and oat milk on the way home. Sometimes it's these little things that count. My husband then went to a gathering and iftaar, so I have spent the evening by myself. It's been ok too. Had some dinner and dessert, and now some tea with you guys. :)

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I don't have much to say about wars and women's rights. Maybe some other day. All I have energy to comment is that wars should not happen at all and I condemn them. And women are great and deserve so much more. 

I truly wish we were living in a different world. These are not easy times. And even though we are more aware of everything through social media, it isn't only that.. it has really gotten so much worse. Humanity is hanging on a thin thread.

I feel often powerless. Heck, I can't even find the right words. I've been living from hand to mouth because of our own government and the changes to the social security, that I don't have really any extra to donate anywhere. I can't go to demonstrations because I don't have anyone to go with. I only can boycott and pray.

I wish I had great things to say, that I could bring some positivity into this all. Be supportive and encourage you, dear readers. But we are all in the same boat that is sinking and only in God we can trust.

As a muslim, and a revert muslim, I have mixed feelings about talking women's rights and being proudly muslim in non-muslim spaces. The Western ideologies demonize islam and especially hijab so much, and people buy all that s*.. I don't want to explain my choices. I don't want to debate. I don't have the energy for that. I don't have a problem with anyone, and what comes to women, we are so many, and unique. Let us all be celebrated as who we are. 

But something positive.. I wore my abaya today ♡ first time in sooo long time. It felt good and I felt beautiful. It's just a dress but as a muslim it means to me so much more. I was so committed for years to wear it. Maybe this is a start for a new era again. Time will tell in sha Allah.

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It has been so warm here in Helsinki. The Spring is here :) I put my winter coats in the closet, took my trench and jean jacket out. Winter shoes, in the closet. Trainers/sneakers out. Linen pants, getting ready.

I find now some comfort in my wardrobe. Usually when the season changes, I feel like I need new clothes. Now I have everything ready and don't need to stress about it. And if I decide to wear more of my abayas, it will solve even more of the dressing up dilemmas. It's nice to have like an own collection. That's how I see my wardrobe nowadays: it's a curated collection of pieces that inspire me. Basics and special ones. Makes daily life a bit easier.

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So yeah, we are approaching the last ten nights. First odd night is tomorrow, right? May Allah swt let us reach Layat ul Qadr and forgive us for our sins.

I'll go now make one last cup of tea. Take care, dears. Until next time,

Aisha