Third day

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh dears :) how are u doing?

This has been my third day as a vegetarian, yay. I'm not sure about tomorrow yet, because I might not have time to cook two things but will see in sha Allah. I also don't know do I have it in me to go two different markets for grocery shopping tomorrow, but we will see in sha Allah. 

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I'm sipping hibiscus and rosehip tea. Both of the ingredients have lot of good qualities :) For example, hibiscus 

- is rich in antioxidants

- lowers blood pressure and cholesterol

- fights inflammation

- supports weight loss

as well as rosehip

- is packed with antioxidants too

- boosts immune system

- relieves joint pain

- helps reducing blood pressure and cholesterol

- supports weight loss

and gives glowing skin. Not bad, huh? :) 

If you're living in Finland, you can find this tea at least in Prisma, costs around 1€. Ingredients are 55% rosehip and 45% hibiscus. Not a paid advert lol but I just want to share this cos it's so affordable and has so much health benefits. I'll try to drink this regularly and am hopeful to see positive effects.

 

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I wanted to sit in the balcony and write there, but I kinda sat there earlier so I needed a new place for an inspiration. Kitchen it is. I've been inspired by the kitchen with these new changes in my diet. I just wanna be, and really feel healthier. 

I struggle still with my weight, and I know I should exercise more. Today I was dancing very freely alone at home, and it was good. But I need to do more. I don't know how it is so difficult to me. Maybe I just am a bit lazy, or if not lazy, then a bit of a hedonist who appreciates comfort more than static training.

But in these sunny evenings I would like to go out, even for a walk, and get some fresh air. But again, it's difficult to go. Most of all, I do struggle with my mental health and I can't be as spontaneous as I'd like to be. I need support in it, and before I am able to support myself, I need to process this for a while.

At least I will go to shower. That'll do for tonight. Tomorrow I have errands to run and then I got work too so I do go out too hehe. In sha Allah I'll figure this out.

 

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Sometimes it is difficult to be a hijabi. We have a very racist government currently, and they have made their way to bring the racism in the public discussion, normalizing it. And the worst enemy for them is islam and muslims. They spread a lot of false belief's of islam. I feel sometimes extra pressure as a revert. Because I know that there is so many Finns, racist or not, who can't understand why someone would join a religion like that. Yeah, Finland is very much an atheist country too. So how it looks like to me, is that anyone can disagree, some of them might bite, so I never really know. I would happily agree to disagree, but I don't think they are so happy.. hateful person brings hate around them, so can conclude from that. 

And I have wore my hijab for 11 years. For me, it's a normal thing and I don't think about it really until other people show it to me. I love it and don't have a problem with it, but there are times when it's heavy to carry. And when I already have this anxiety to struggle with, which is mostly social.. well, it's not always easy. 

I don't want to complain though. Becoming a muslim was the best decision I've made, and I don't have a problem to be outwardly muslim. Everyone have their challenges, this is mine. But just sometimes I wish I had somewhere else to go back, where I came from. 

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Yeah, some things going on. Oh well. You know, dear readers, usually I just write what's on my mind, so I don't necessarily control so much in which direction this is going. But I wanna assure you that I am happy, everything is fine, I'll keep my hijab in sha Allah and am doing fine. If someone is my worst enemy, it's me, myself and I who tries to put sticks in my stroller (stop me from doing what I do). That's how progress usually goes, it's not a clean line from A to B to C, it might be lemon lemon **** lemon and then all of the ABC:s at once. Or maybe something else but anyways, as long as you don't quit but keep going, it's all gonna work out some way for you. :)

Thanks for being there ♡ next time then,

Aisha