See you soon little one

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 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh :) how have u been?


I had a nice day, alhamdulillah. I went for a little city walk, I walked to the famous Roihuvuori cherry tree park, which is close by. The trees were blossoming in the start of summer, and now I could see only park workers, there was almost nobody there. I took a pic and continued my way to the library and market. Tomorrow morning I'm gonna head up to the market again to get some coffee and things because my sister's family is coming in sha Allah. Or not all of them, but anyways. They actually are coming to pick the ninja turtle to have a little summer holiday at their place :) it will do good for Suttis, he can be more out and the kiddos will play with him. In sha Allah. I will miss him though, I already do. He's a menace but so, so adorable too. Like today late morning, when I finally woke up around 12.30, he had already woken up without seeing me, so when I got up he just ran after me everywhere. 





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I need a cup of tea. I have had a bit painful period now. Physically and mentally. I thought really this time would be it, but no. No baby. I don't know what to say. I've told myself so many times that just be patient.. But I am happy with what is written for me. There's not anything I can really do right now so I'll just accept what comes.

Positivity is so messed up sometimes. There's not always a silver lining. I can move forward though, because I am tired to stop also. The stream will keep me moving, and I'll float, trusting that I'll find the shore eventually. Or end up in a sea. Anyways, there will be some kind of conclusion or closure.


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Peppermint. It's nice to drink some herbal teas in the evenings. I have tried a few different ones, but peppermint is my favorite. It can be mixed with green tea too. I guess it's more for the stomach, but it cheers me up. I don't mind it's a toothpaste flavor, hehe.

I'm writing here in the living room, sitting on the sofa corner. The sun is slowly starting to set, and it gives some golden hues to the blank wall. I feel like that wall. Sometimes it's like that. If I can't get kids of my own, it doesn't mean that kids disappear from the world! Well, maybe there's a little silver lining at least. I'm happy to see my nieces tomorrow ♥




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I hope you excuse my mood today, dear readers. Not my best day, not my worst one though either. But a thoughtful evening, sipping this peppermint tea and after watching a horror movie to distract my thoughts (The Mummy.. oh the irony).

Well, I really don't have anything better to say, hehe. It's so sad I kinda feel like laughing. I guess it's not that serious. Life is like this, sometimes it gives, sometimes it takes. 

But I'll be myself, and I'll trust Allah. 

Next time then dears,


Aisha

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