Cup of tea with Aisha

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh all :) how have you been? It's been a couple of days, or well, it was the holidays as you know. I don't celebrate Christmas but it's always still a special time of the year. There's so many memories and so many sore spots about past Christmases, from the time I wasn't a muslim yet. Happy memories too of course. But it does remind me of the brokenness we experience. So I am happy we are past that now and it's time to turn our gaze to a new year in sha Allah. ... Today I was making some meat pies / pastries, however you like to call them. I'll share my recipe for the filling, it's simple yet very delicious. For the pastry you can make any type of butter dough, or also buy a ready one from the market, no judging here. This amount will be enough for 12-15 pieces. You'll need - 250g ground beef or chicken - salt - paprika  - black pepper - garlic powder - dried thyme - hot pepper (I didn't have it today, ...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh guys :) how's your evening? I decided to write, just for a chat, because for some reason my Max doesn't work, Yle Areena doesn't work, Youtube doesn't work, and we don't also have a tv right now so what am I supposed to do 😟 My husband is sleeping so only quiet activity I could think of is journaling. I don't also want to go out because I was out already today lol. So we are stuck here! ... Today I kinda start to find my happiness again. It took some tears, few outbursts, love and comforting, and that one walk in the forest and I started to feel better again. My hormones are storming for some reason, and I think they partly are the reason for my problems lately, or at least that I have been quite moody. But anyways, alhamdulillah, now on the better side again. Don't give any side eye or evil eye, just be happy. (: it doesn't really take much. And this might not last long, even though I of course hope so. So...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah :) how's your day going? I woke up early and also slept late, yes that's possible lol, and I have just done some chores and went for a walk in the forest. I feel better now, the walk did wonders and I already have more positive perspective.  ... When others go to work, I can spend easily that 9 to 5 stressing, worrying and being anxious.. not every day, but just saying, I do have an illness. It's a strange thing though. For some, they claim not to see it, and for some, it pushes them away. Well, alhamdulillah for both outcomes.. but I have been wondering how many of my close circle people are actually accepting me as I am. Or am I pouring from myself too much on them. I know it sounds harsh. But the fact is that a mental illness will affect on the person obviously, and the people around them. And it's not for everybody. Not everybody can understand how to deal with it. I have had to learn it by myself, and I'm still on that learning ...

 Assalamu aleikum dears :) how are u? I'm fine, alhamdulillah. I'm now getting used to this, that everything is actually alright. I know it doesn't sound a real problem, and maybe it isn't, but at least it's kinda strange that things go easy and everything is ok. Usually there's always some problems? But yeah, alhamdulillah.  ... My skin has been breaking out really bad lately, and I've tried some remedies. I ordered few things from Limepop. Jojoba oil, then some nettle powder for shampoo making, and shea butter. I've used only aloe vera + olive oil mix for my face, then added micellar water for cleansing and it seemed to work fine, for a while. But now I have had some painful pimples on my face and body and it makes me crazy. Painful and an awful feel.. so what I came up with, is firstly using Bio oil for the acne scars. Then secondly I made a new oil mix for my face with using 50-50 jojoba oil and organic extra virgin olive oil, and then I added around...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah :) what's up? I had some second thoughts about yesterday's post.. maybe I went a bit too personal, in a way it's good to talk about things but on the other hand I wish you to know that this is only my blog, it's not my whole life. I like to share personal matters because I want to give peer support and it might benefit someone, but I don't necessarily share things in such deep level I feel uncomfortable. I have the responsibility, and also the dear reader too :) to understand there's always more than what meets the eye, in good and bad. ... Anyways, if you want to treat your significant other with a nice dinner, you can try my pasta bolognese recipe. This is not an authentic Italian recipe, this is how I like to do it. There's as many recipes as there are chefs :) You need (for 2-4 people) - vegetable oil  - 300g ground beef - salt - black pepper - paprika powder - cayenne pepper - dried thyme - fresh parsley - 1 onion - 3 bi...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah all :) how are you doing? Alhamdulillah. Still on the mountain, though today I went to visit one of my friends and had a real nice talk with her. I'm so happy people around me understand how I need now time for myself. I hope I get the chance to be that understanding friend too. ... I have so many things to talk about, I can't make up my mind should I open up or just not write at all.. In the end I feel kinda sad that I bring emotional baggage to my new relationship, to be honest. It's human, yes, many of us have been there, but it is disappointing because past should stay past. But really like.. how many are the stories about lying, cheating, manipulative, toxic men in our lives? Sister to sister..  And so many seem to be in a good relationship, ma sha Allah, everything beautiful.. kids, spouse, house, career. And the truth might be so different from that perfect picture. Sometimes it just makes me think, what is the part of woman in this l...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah all :) How are you doing? Almost weekend :) I'm doing fine, alhamdulillah. I have been thinking about writing for several days, but I've just been so exhausted. I did what I know is best (if possible): cancel every appointment and take time without schedules. My nurse was so sweet, she called me many times and I didn't respond until she texted me she is worried (I'm horrible, I know :( ) so I then called her and told I'm just so tired with everything, and she just said ok, well then you don't have to come (: let's see in January. So alhamdulillah, I got no appointments or anything this December. I need this so bad. Only thing that comes with this, is that I also can't see my friends so often.. if you read this, friend, know that I love you but I just can't do better right now. I need to hide at home until I feel better again, in sha Allah. And today has been a nice day ❤  ... I promised you a fashion post, I remember....