Cup of tea with Aisha

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh :) how r u? I'm waiting for a friend to come over for few days in sha Allah. My husband went today to visit his old home town and will be away for some days. I manage here just fine, I had a little breakdown but back on track now. :) ... It's strange how Allah's plan will always find it's way in a most beautiful, natural way. I have had answers to my duaas, alhamdulillah, and my love is growing each day. It's the first summer in years I really enjoy. My husband has bring so much good in my life, I am really grateful of that. We have been married now four months and I feel like the rough start finally bears fruit. So I try to be a good wife, I also try to take good care of myself so I will be able to do so, in sha Allah.  ... I don't know what to write.. I am home now, I am alone now, but alhamdulillah. The little breakdown I had, passed with some more medicine and now I haven't taken any extra for couple days. I...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh everyone :) how u doing? Alhamdulillah I have had so nice Eid :) This was the first year I had family to spend it with :)) My husband's little brother was visiting. I also went to Hakaniemi with my friend, to hang around in a park for a while. Summer is beautiful, the weather was perfect, I have been so happy ma sha Allah. I hope your Eid was also happy and you got nice gifts ;) ... My imaan  is raising it's head. I think, optimistically as have to, that I will get through this.. in sha Allah. Still I hope to become a good muslim and I keep on reaching out to the right direction. It's up to me - and only I can end this misery. Practicing more will make the imaan  grow, that's a fact. I will keep on doing my little deeds in sha Allah and remember sunnah . How do you take care of your  imaan ? ... I've spend time by myself too this weekend, and now I'm happy to have my cup of tea (!) and sit with you a minute. Now I f...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah dears :) how are u doing? I woke up with hubby, soon gonna make another cup of coffee in sha Allah, and Suttis looks like he's ready for some lettuce. I have work today. Then after work I'm planning to go buy few Eid gifts.. I'm on my period so I can't fast tomorrow :(  I would need all the imaan  boosts.. ... Sometimes I miss Jamaica so much. It's nothing particular, it's the vibe, nature, food.. some people. Like my ex's mother, we still keep contact every once a while. One day I go back to visit in sha Allah. It's been now 2,5 since I was there last time.. I can't help it, part of me is there still. But that part has come smaller through time. I don't know should I renew it, reminisce it or revoke the whole memory of it. I'm thankful of the experiences. I know I worked hard for it.. and put my heart and soul into it. That's why the divorce was so painful, like I guess they always are. I even said to my ...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah :) how are u? A nice Saturday, alhamdulillah. My friend asked me to join her and go today to Marimekko outlet. I love keychains but unfortunately they didn't have those. So I ended up with paper napkins lol and it was nice to see what they have in their collection right now. Maybe they have more interesting pieces in their own stores.. The range there was very classic. I hopped on the story already, but let's just continue. :D Yeah we went then to eat and finally also visited the abaya shop on the nearby mall. I found a baati (home dress) and some incense sticks. We then came here my home, to relax a bit. Hubby is with his friends so no worries.  And now, some time later, I'm here with you. :) ... And, I just poured a glass of orange juice under the bed.. nice.  Things are easy, still, alhamdulillah. I am, a weather vane as we say in Finnish (tuuliviiri) and it means that person's head turns a lot. Older I get, the more perspective and u...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh all :) how are u doing? Today a day off, so I just did some basic chores at home and now we chill with Suttis. I'm having a cup of coffee and he is sunbathing :) ... Now I can finally post pics again, alhamdulillah. Here's few photos of Suttis :)  He is so cute I can't <3 I hope you will have a nice, sunshiny day today :) Sorry today I don't write much.. it's the happy in me, doesn't let me write :( But, what subjects you would like me to write about? Tell me in comments below. Next time then in sha Allah, Aisha

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah everyone :) how are u doing? I woke up with my husband and didn't get any sleep after he left so I did what I do best (?): I went through all my clothes and now I have one plastic bag full of donations. In sha Allah, I will soon start to get ready to go to a local flea market to bring those and maybe make some finds too. ... I am happy, alhamdulillah. Still in the pothole for various reasons but I am ok. I have time in my mind for inspiration, that is new. I have painting ideas.. This all is a bit new for me. Easygoing life and no anxiety.. What is this madness :( But my religious life hasn't followed, at least yet. I struggle with really low man and I feel like I need time to get myself back on the straight path. I am so much in this life I forget to think about the afterlife. ... It's a calm morning. Looks like it has rained at night. I am sitting on our bed with my laptop and Suttis is wandering around. Laundry is almost ready, and I'...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah all :) it's weekend! Today I just was at work and then came home, we talked a bit with my husband which cleared all my worries, alhamdulillah, and then he went out with his friends and now I'm only lonely here at home. But alhamdulillah.  ... I've come to a point where my social anxiety levels are low, and I very much can function in my normal daily life without it being a bigger struggle. So alhamdulillah again. Just the thing is that now when I wanna step out and go places, my social life can't follow.. :D If you're used to stay home every evening every time, there's a possibility that a) people don't ask you to come because you used to cancel always, or b) you don't have that social life! Oh my days.. I need action :D I love my friends though, even today we have at least talked in phone and gonna meet one sister tomorrow so..  I just feel like I want to live my life and have fun. My life is so different now. Not perfec...