Coffee and cake

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh all :) how are u doing?

I had a nice day with a friend. We went for some coffee and after that to a flea market. Nice :) the weather was great for a little walk. After that I obviously came home, cooked nice jollof this time alhamdulillah, and then we've been just relaxing. Suttis, the ninja turtle, is sleeping a lot, today he went to sleep in the corner at 2.30 pm and has been there all day, that's what he does nowadays. Just a small stroll around his territories and then sleep. I take him back to his enclosure around ten pm, and he slowly walks into his little cardboard hut. He's so precious ma sha Allah. And he adores my husband, he never tries to bite him. Sometimes I see him even laying down and admiring my hubby from a distance :D ma sha Allah, so cute. Then I'm the one he wants to play with, climb on, and bite, bite and bite. Well, anyways, alhamdulillah, it has been a nice day.

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I got news from the school, so exciting. They sent a survey to all of the applicants, which apparently are 300+.. and also we were required to send a motivation video too. I did the both right away, I thought better early than late because I can't get better with more thinking, probably more anxious.

But I am dealing with imposter syndrome now. Am I really able to study? I'm worried about all kinds of things. If I get selected..

- will I find the class rooms

- are everybody 10 years younger than me and

- will I make new friends or 

- do I have to stay alone and eat alone semester to semester?

And it's not all. I'm also worried that

- will I be able to wake up in the mornings

- will I have the energy to attend the school

- am I able to study without my stress levels and anxiety rise to the roof?

And I haven't even been picked yet. Hmm.. I'm like Mr. Bean, I am awkward and everything embarrassing will happen to me, and these both happen especially in new situations. Mind that last time I was in school was when I was 16 years. 20 years ago. Oh my days...

I know, I need to be patient and first I need to be chosen to study, to start with. But I have to panic a bit too.. Allah knows best, I have made my duaas, what will happen will be the best for me, I get selected or not. Anybody else started studying later in life? Feel free to share your story in comments. ♥

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I have also some errands to run tomorrow and Friday in sha Allah. Well, one day at a time. I ordered a new mascara, and a lipstick too, I hope the color will be nice, it was a kind of a peachy shade. I have thought about the color theory and always have assumed I am an autumn, but I have come to a conclusion that probably I'm a Spring instead. So I am embracing these lighter, brighter colors. 

I also went to pick my winter clothes from the storage and put my summer clothes there. They have been promising +20 degrees here still for weeks hehe. So not gonna rock my puffer coat yet. I just want to see how my wardrobe will change (basically not at all).. I just took one tunic and flowy pants out and replaced them with a knitted dress. My wardrobe and building it has been a project, but right now I feel it's really working well and can use the same pieces through different seasons with only small changes. I also feel I can dress more creative and I have more options, with less clothes, which was what I was aiming for.

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Evening time I crave for something sweet. I have been developing a microwave mug cake (a cereal bowl cake) recipe for a few times. I can't share it yet, because I have been lazy to count the ingredients. It's simple though: oil, sugar, egg, flour, cocoa powder, baking powder and some vanilla sugar. It has a good cakey texture and quenches the sweet tooth well. Maybe I should make one now? The tea has finished anyways :)

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Later then,

Aisha