Cup of tea with Aisha

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah everyone :) how are you? I have had a small break in posting, Was busy and then I went to my mum's place for one week. Alhamdulillah it went fine, it was like a nice holiday in peace and quiet. And with good food too. I came home few hours ago and it was raining! So happy to be home now, dry and warm. Blessings. ... I feel much better now. I think I have made peace in my mind with certain matters and I start to feel.. free? I don't even remember how that feels. I have been trapped with anxiety and sadness for a long time due to the break up and the time before that, and now that I'm ready to leave it in the past, I suddenly have this breeze blowing in my life. I don't have to answer to anyone of my doings, (not that I had to before but anyways) I can use my money freely, I can do whatever I want. It's a good feeling. And main point is, the future doesn't scare me anymore. I'm happy even if I'm alone. I do need my family a

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah :) how are u doing? Today was a regular day, I went to gym and market, talked with my mom and friends, spend the rest of the day watching Stranger Things and made some lentil soup. Alhamdulillah. This day has passed with a minor note but I am alright. ... I was thinking today about mental health. I have been struggling with my for past two decades.. kinda crazy right? No pun intended :) I am not looking for anyone to be sorry for me, I am not sorry for myself at all. People's paths are different and my mental health has been part of my tests in life, and who knows, a blessing too. Maybe I get some sins removed because of it. Maybe I am able to give peer support. And so on. :) But of course two decades makes me stop and think a while. I don't know could my life have gone other way.. At this point I feel it's part of my life and I am not fighting against it. I just want to be able to fully live my life. Sometimes it looks like staying home all

 Assalamu aleikum everyone :)  My day has been really nice so far, alhamdulillah. I slept late, as I am all the time very sleepy due to the medicine I need to use.. so yes, I slept as much as I wanted, then showered and prayed and went to Tokmanni shop to see what they have there. I found few nice things, like a soap pump (what is it called?) and a kitchen towel, and then some cosmetics. I wanted to go to a second hand shop too but it was closed for some reason. Then I came home and made a meat loaf with some fried vegetables and salad, it was ok. Should I make a cup of tea? ... Past days have been kinda easy like this one. I had a good time at work, I've met my friends, everything is ok and can even enjoy the rain. Alhamdulillah. Anxiety hasn't been that bad.  I've shed a few tears too. But it's part of the process. I'm still working on myself, like I will probably always be. ... I put my summer shoes away, and in with boots. Season is changing. Did you like my fal

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah all :) How's your weekend? I didn't have work this week at all. I've been really tired and I haven't been able to go so much to gym or walks, just one time each this week, and in sha Allah I try to do both tomorrow. But still I can say alhamdulillah, and I am happy. How? ... I recently got a question about my faith. One reader asked me, how come my faith is still strong, and I have had a lot of hard times. How come I haven't left my faith? First of all, I was really happy about this question. If you have comments, questions or any kind of feedback, you can always leave a comment or contact me @cupofteawithaisha at Instagram.  But yes, it was a really good question and I thought I will write more about it to give a more comprehensive answer. So how my faith is still so strong? I want to start by saying that it's not, at least not all the time. I make mistakes and sins, and I rather see myself as a striving muslim but not mu'mi

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah :) How are you doing? My week has started easy. I have been very tired lately, don't know if it's the medicine I'm on or then low vitamin D levels (lol), or what else.. I try to stay active and also take time to rest. I did clean my home today so at least I did something productive. And now of course, I sit down with you. Better to make the last cup of tea of today.. ... I'm doing fine, alhamdulillah. Please, no evil eye, I am still recovering for the last one :'D I feel less anxious and more and more time passes since my divorce, I am healing and getting better, alhamdulillah. I do still feel for him.. not love like being in love, but of course we were together for several years so the feelings don't vanish so quickly. We sort of keep in touch but it's kinda complicated. I don't want to talk about it more but I guess we still both wish some reaction from the other one, just our needs differ.. but like I said, my healing