Just a bit lonely, that's all

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah all :) it's weekend!

Today I just was at work and then came home, we talked a bit with my husband which cleared all my worries, alhamdulillah, and then he went out with his friends and now I'm only lonely here at home. But alhamdulillah. 

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I've come to a point where my social anxiety levels are low, and I very much can function in my normal daily life without it being a bigger struggle. So alhamdulillah again. Just the thing is that now when I wanna step out and go places, my social life can't follow.. :D If you're used to stay home every evening every time, there's a possibility that a) people don't ask you to come because you used to cancel always, or b) you don't have that social life! Oh my days.. I need action :D I love my friends though, even today we have at least talked in phone and gonna meet one sister tomorrow so.. 

I just feel like I want to live my life and have fun. My life is so different now. Not perfect, but I don't have to struggle so much. Main thing is right medication. Very important. Then safe company, that is important too. Safe husband, has helped a lot with this. How? Well, he don't see the mistakes in me what I see myself. He of course knows about my illness, but he never makes me feel bad about it. So his love has been healing.

Alhamdulillah.

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We also opened the little Zamzam water bottle :) I recited al Fatiha over it, and finally got to try the water from the blessed well. It was so pure! Clean, cold, refreshing and true, it's not "just water". It is the best water I've ever tried :) I don't know is it sunnah, but I made a wish while drinking it. In sha Allah it will come true :)

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So yeah. Actually it's a really peaceful evening. I tend to hurry, I try to relax more but I guess I always have one leg in the next task.. I need to stop, pause, and appreciate all the blessings. Alhamdulillah yet one time, I can't say it enough. 

I want to say I love you :) Have a nice weekend dears!

Aisha