Good and bad, but in a good way

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh all :) have a blessed Friday :)

I've been in such a bad mood for couple of days, yesterday I cried to my husband and today, alhamdulillah, back to normal. I have just felt so off, I don't feel so good about myself and everything seemed so sticky. That's how it be sometimes.

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Today I went to donate blood to Finnish Red Cross. I highly recommend! It's very easy and doesn't take long time, maybe the whole thing takes about 30 minutes, including a talk with the nurse, the donation and then coffee/juice/snack afterwards. I think the nurses are just so extra nice and they will make you feel comfortable. Last time I went was maybe around two years ago, so now after the longer time I felt the slightest bit dizzy but I feel good now few hours after. This is a very easy and simple act with so much good that it brings. You're able to help three people with your donation. These people might be for example a baby born prematurely, a cancer patient, and someone who's had an accident. There's no such thing as synthetic blood, it always has to come from people. That was the reason for me to start donating, I realized how very, very important the blood donation is. I challenge you to try even one time :) you might be positively surprised. And having a little adrenaline rush afterwards like me, so energetic hehe :) Oh, and it was my fifth time so apparently I earned a small gift!

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Yeah, I have had some difficult moods to deal with too. I think it's always around or after ovulation, I just get so irritated about everything. But even if it's hormonal and natural, it doesn't mean one has the right to be mean to others.. I'm learning better communication and instead of picking others (husband) I try to just say straight the feel. Like 'I feel like everything irritates me'. Then it's easier also to respond. My husband made me lay down, my legs on his lap and yes, I instantly felt better. How could I have been anymore irritated around him :') This is what I am learning now, the stable, safe relationship. It's harder than I thought but no matter how cheesy it sounds, we can do it together.

Also it requires the work. It's a lot of listening your inner, true voice and what it needs and wants. And in a relationship the communication really is the key. They way you choose to talk to each other will set the whole mood, and can proceed into a fight or then reconciliation. Personally I have to do the work also on my confidence, I don't know why I see myself so low. I should celebrate myself and be happy but I'm in this loop where I look at myself in a very negative way and then just feel worse. 

These are not usually common sense things, btw. I know how I am supposed to think but the feelings take over the sense. Well, it's a journey.. have to just walk the path and with hardship comes ease, eventually.

 

 

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Alhamdulillah. My friend is coming to my city tomorrow in sha Allah. It's good to go out, I have spent so much time at home. Do girlie stuff, go shopping and have some ice coffee etc. or whatever. 

Now I wanna get ready for asr prayer in sha Allah. More tea next time in sha Allah, now I just sip my vitamin drink and then after prayer, relax. Thank you for reading :)

Aisha