Change starts at home

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah all :) how has your week been?

I have definitely been more restless lately. I start, the millionth time, to live more healthily and focus on good routines. It's ok that I have been in this spot a lot, because it makes it also easier to rise again. Mostly I'm just gonna start working out and going on walks more in sha Allah, that will surely help with the restlessness and nervousness. Easy peasy lemon difficult, or how did it go..

So alhamdulillah, I have had a nice day. I did some laundry, then relaxed, then I did a half hour home workout from Youtube, and after dinner I still went for a walk. I'm not so tired that I normally would be without the exercise, and I feel a lot more calm. I need to try my best to be consistent, so I would be able to re-wire my brain to be addicted in the outdoors and exercise instead of sugar and caffeine. But anyways I'm not complaining, I have all the freedom to do as I please so it's an inner fight I must win.

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We have also made some small changes at home. We put my collection of flower paintings on the wall, there's still room for more but it looks cosy now too. We are still planning to get new curtains in sha Allah, and we added now one curtain in kitchen. Note, these pics are not polished so this is how it looks like here normally.. this is the level of basic messy in our minimalist household, hehe. We don't have much stuff so it's more like a displaced pillow..

Suttis also got an upgrade, I got him a new violet and he just keeps sleeping next to it, even in the night. I've bought these from the fruit and vegetables section from the supermarket so they don't really last long like a regular houseplant would (violets are edible and it's used for decorating salads and cakes etc.).

My cutie pies ❤ My husband patiently put all of the paintings where I pointed them and just commented that usually you put them straight, lol. But it actually looks more cosy to me when there's no straight lines. I want to make my home always a place where my mind can relax and guests can feel homey. Points to husband to make decisions with me but letting me have my way if I really want to. :)

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"Verily, Allah will not change the (good) condition of people as long as they do not change their state (of goodness) themselves (by committing sins and by being ungrateful and disobidient to Allah)." - al-Ra'd 13:11

Personally I think it is my time to now re-evaluate where I am going in life, what I want to do, what I want my life to look like. I have been in this stage for a while. Now there's some possibilities ahead, things that would actually be bigger leaps on my path. I also try to learn my lesson to remember to be grateful, properly, of the good times and not stumble to sing myself this lullaby of dunya. I want to be more active, I want to be the main character in my own life. Things are going good now, alhamdulillah, I just need to find my purpose and aspiration. I'm here to worship Allah. But which way? Allah knows best, du'aas have been cast :)

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Yeah, alhamdulillah. Time to make a cup of tea. It fits me better than coffee, don't you think? Hehe. I've always been sensitive to substances and caffein is surprisingly strong one. So now it's gonna be green tea, herbs, home cooked dinners, time spent in forest, chores and con-sis-ten-cy. That's the main ingredient. Where to get it, well, I better find out in sha Allah :)

Until next time,

Aisha