Market day

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 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah all :) how r u?


Today my husband accompanied me to market and this small shop which sells basically everything. I got some drawing paper, he got his things, and then we bought some meat etc from the halal shop. I'm happy that we got to do that so early today, so I had time to also test my markers before I need to start cooking.




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I feel like the new chapter is calling really. I have had some changes in my life, and right now also my anxiety has been more on the background, so I think it's a good time to process, reflect, and direct energy on pondering the ideas of what kind of life I want to live. I am not well enough to go to work, even though the extra money would really help. It's kinda like, I'm doing good when I can live on my own terms, but if I start working, I slowly start to stress so much that my symptoms start to show too. But I don't want my life be lived just yet though. Actually the opposite, I want to break through the anxiety and live the kind of life I want. Do more of the things I like, instead of having constant guilt that I am not working, or I don't fit in, etc. Even my nurse have said to me to just take good care of myself. And she said that my life sounds really nice. Alhamdulillah. ♥

Yeah, I'm back at the mountain. It seems like I need some solitude from time to time, it's not a bad thing. My outlines are clearer while I'm here. And I am here still, haven't gone anywhere but holding my space for a while now. 




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Time will tell, in sha Allah. For now, I just do what I do and see what will be, I guess. 

I hope you all are well. Short story this time, until next one,


Aisha


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