Clear mind
Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah all :) how's your week started? Alhamdulillah. I'm doing better and finding another piece of me which has been somewhat lost for a while. Today I was all day at home, but in sha Allah one of my friends is coming to visit me tomorrow, I really look forward to it because I actually haven't met my friends in the past few weeks. I needed some time alone and doing my own things. ... Yeah. I don't remember now all what I have written since Spring, but I did have a long time I didn't really practice islam well. It's ironic that I was looking that time, back to the times I thought I'm a lousy muslim but in reality I was being a good muslim after all. But this Spring was one of my lowest times of a long time. Somehow the jahiliyah (old life, old ways, ignorance as a believer) keeps calling me still after 9,5 years and I fell into the trap. Not at all my proudest moments. I was just being in a bad company, won't say more about it ...