Somewhere new

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 Assalamu aleikum everyone 🌱 


It's been a while.. 

I love the state where I am consistent in what I do. But it's also one of the things I can't keep up with. Or maybe it's the exact issue holding me back sometimes. I can be consistent in a long run though. In some things at least.


But here's the thing, yeah? I am now in Jamaica, alhamdulillah! Finally reached here after two years and two weeks of separation from my husband and best friend forever in sha Allah. Truthfully, I have gone up and down the whole spectrum of feelings, and was ready to even give up a couple of times. I am humbled and grateful that Allah (swt) lead me to the person who has so much patience and strenght, and love towards me. He has been the glue, holding us together and repairing any damage, and he's been the rope where our knot is tied. This is where, once again, I can truly see how du'aa has so much power. Ma sha Allah. ❤ 




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Jamaica and Finland are so different places that it's like I'm on another planet. Everything is different: daily routines, food, communication, culture, bugs, weather, even passing of time.. and moving from a city to the countryside. Not that different means negative. I like it here. It's challenging, but overall I just feel I'm now able to relax. Coming here has been my goal for so long. Not only now, because of Covid and that uncertainty it brought, but me and my husband met in 2017 and since then we've just wanted to live together. The first stay here didn't go as planned, but then second and third time I was able to spend here three months. Working 7 to 12 months, focusing on saving for the plane tickets etc.. I've barely done anything else! Counting a budget and dropping out all the extra. I've gotten some help also. But it was a lot about managing with bare minimum. Was it worth it? 😊 No doubt.

I try to find my role as a wife, because it's time to step out of the visitor/guest setting I've had before. We have still some things to work on with the house and so on, and it will be sorted out with time, in sha Allah. In the meantime I am creating new routines, and ways to keep the home clean and organized. So basics, I guess, but the simple life is the favourite kind of way for both of us. 




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The consistency, my arch enemy.. could be my dearest friend. That's what I wish to develop now in myself especially. Otherwise, I am happy and feel that my feet will carry me. For the first time in my life, I've noticed this lovely thought coming to my mind before going to sleep: what will tomorrow bring? And Allah (swt) knows best.




- Aisha

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