Teary

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 Assalamu aleikum everyone, how are you doing?


I'm a little scared to write. It's same why I'm sometimes worried to pray and recite out loud: I worry I'm just gonna cry.

Crying itself is healing. I think it as washing our hearts clean again, from sins and that sticky situation mud that keeps weighing us down. But it's hard to let go of self control like that.

Sometimes I cry often. Sometimes it comes from empathy. Sometimes it can be coming from self pity and those hard feelings of neglect and abandonment. I am a love junkie - when I feel lonely, that's when my eyes bowl easily.

 


 

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Can a person cry and be strong same time? Of course. Can a person have sabr, patience, and cry still? Definetly. To feel your feelings and be in the moment who you are takes a lot of strenght.

I have never wanted to become cynical, and my cries have saved me from that, alhamdulillah. 

 

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Right now I'm going through something very difficult in my life. I don't feel the vibe to just tell I'm alright. Right now I am just holding on. But it has helped me to grow some strenght. And crying the pain out has helped.

For me it helps when I think of this as a process. Not the end of the world. A work in progress. Allah (swt) wants good for us and I have my trust in that. Just a process.



And I want to remind anyone going through something right now, that growth and learning is not a simple one way path. There will be ups and downs, ease and hardship along the way. Trust in Allah's plan, today and tomorrow. ❤

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