Blisters with bliss

Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh all :) how has your week started?

Today we went to pick up a carpet and then went for some groceries. Alhamdulillah. It has been a nice day. But, I have a summer shoe issue: all of them are hurting me. I try to wear some of them inside the house so they would soften up. Got the first blister of this summer yesterday.. 

.. and bought plasters. 

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Last night someone from my past contacted me. I feel good about myself, that I was able to turn the suggestions down peacefully and same time making my point of view clear. I dunno really.. I was so in love, or that's what I thought. Now I'm able to see it in a different light: it doesn't matter anymore. 

It feels so relieving. It doesn't matter anymore. It feels now rather silly that I actually thought I'd never be able to move on. Here I am, saying stuff like "life goes on better catch the ride" and being so happy with my husband, alhamdulillah. It's once yet proven that situations really can change so much. I have had pretty busy couple years now, lot of things happening, these big changes. It feels relieving that now I don't have to worry about anything. Those who are meant to stay in your life, will stay, and I trust in that. Can't emphasize enough that love takes work. You need to carry the sticks for the stove. And both of you, equally.  And then, with a right person, it doesn't even feel like work. It's routines, breakfasts together, understanding, intimacy...

... and then you don't need the plasters anymore once you are healed.

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So yeah, there's a sofa and a carpet, next I hope we could get some chairs and a table for the balcony. I had today some ice tea flavored drink with some ice and oh my gosh it was good :) This is what I mean with all the simple things that makes one happy. I don't know which barrel I've been living but I haven't had an ice cube tray like never so having a freezer and the tray feels like luxury. Ice cold drink! Yes ma sha Allah. I want to sit on the balcony, sip my drink and listen to the birds or Qur'an recitation.

Then have to also drink hot tea in the corner of the sofa. I'm concentrating now on drinking more, and should cut the sugar too. Focus on being healthier again, that's being truly wealthier. My weight loss has kinda stopped, mostly I think because I haven't exercised now that much and have had snacks almost every day so.. in sha Allah, have to make some adjustments again. My journey of leaving addiction and becoming more aware of my well being is not a clear path, and there's lot of twists in this story. But sometimes, for a small glimpse, I feel like it's worth the fight.

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Now it's time for me to put on a face mask and wash some dishes. Thank you for reading.

Also, I remind myself and us all keep making du'aa for Gaza and Palestine. May Allah bring justice in people's hearts. It's really now or never. 

So we continue other time again, 

Aisha