Cup of tea with Aisha

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah everyone :) how are u today? I've had a good day so far, alhamdulillah, thanks for asking! :D I slept so well. I tend to have so vivid dreams that it makes me want to sleep in rather than wake up early. It's also a side effect of the medicine I use. But yeah, I had breakfast and then took a nap again.. then it was already time to pray and after prayer I had a nice walk in the forest. I just have a bit of a head ache so I have my cup of paracetamol this time.  ... I am very shy to go new places alone. Me? Can you believe that I have went by myself to Jamaica from Finland four times? Have lived my youth mostly going alone to places and parties? Hanged around with strangers from evenings to mornings? Have sung and performed poetry to a bar full of people, not even once of twice but many times? I am still very shy, to go to new places alone. But I love an adventure. Today I had a bit of an adventure when I went to explore a new forest route, and I ...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah all :) how has your week been? I have definitely been more restless lately. I start, the millionth time, to live more healthily and focus on good routines. It's ok that I have been in this spot a lot, because it makes it also easier to rise again. Mostly I'm just gonna start working out and going on walks more in sha Allah, that will surely help with the restlessness and nervousness. Easy peasy lemon difficult, or how did it go.. So alhamdulillah, I have had a nice day. I did some laundry, then relaxed, then I did a half hour home workout from Youtube, and after dinner I still went for a walk. I'm not so tired that I normally would be without the exercise, and I feel a lot more calm. I need to try my best to be consistent, so I would be able to re-wire my brain to be addicted in the outdoors and exercise instead of sugar and caffeine. But anyways I'm not complaining, I have all the freedom to do as I please so it's an inner fight I m...

Assalamu aleikum again guys :) how r u? I wanted to come back again. I need you. I wanna write about everything and embrace all the good people left in this world. My heart cries for all of the war happening. It's not like the situation in Gaza would have gone better. It doesn't mean that Congo or South Sudan are alright. And how the list just goes on.. But of course these past attacks to Iran have been exceptional. Start of a WW3? Also yes, they are Shia. That doesn't take away their humanity. Internet is a strange place.. and now when I'm on this, happy Pride month too to everyone celebrating. The fact that other people have/need to have their rights doesn't take away of my own. I can share and I hope u can too. I am making an evening cup of coffee and was thinking what does "spill the coffee" mean instead of tea, well, apparently this. Hold on tightly! ... Hehe, well actually I'm not gonna go deeper in this. It all just ends up in my head the same w...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah dears :) how have u been? Sunday vybs here, everything ok alhamdulillah. No politics today, I don't know how to process all this. Feeling very uncertain of the future. But now we are in this little bubble and right now things are calm and peaceful. My boys are sleeping, other in the comfort of the bed and other in the roughness of the living room corner.. I have promised to write to you so I take my time with you dears ❤ ... It was Midsummer this weekend, maybe the best holiday what we have in Finland. It's all about celebrating the summertime, each in their own ways. Well, we are muslim so we have the two Eid's.. it's a bit difficult to not feel a bit of a holiday spirit though, just being honest. But we have been taking it easy, yesterday was raining and we had some rainy day blues going on anyways. Today was a better day alhamdulillah, and we went to the city to have a little walk. It's nice to do things together, even if it's...

 Assalamu aleikum dears, near and far. And whereeever you are, hehe. How are u doing? I have mixed feelings. On the other hand I'm doing fine and on the other, well, it's all what's going on in the world right now. I don't have wise words, all I can say is la ilaha illallah.  ... In my bubble, it's been a nice day. I'm waiting patiently what's gonna happen with the school, I will know in the end of summer in sha Allah. But I'm already mentally preparing myself, I need to be able to study of course, and overcome at least some of my anxiety if I get accepted. But mainly I just leave everything to Allah swt, that is the best way. Everything that is supposed to happen will happen. No one can take your risq away. And now, today, right here is where we are supposed to be.  We also went for a walk in the forest, then I put away some clothes to donation, hand washed few clothes, prepared dinner and hang out with hubby again. Now I made some vegan chocolate cooki...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah everyone :) how have you been doing? I don't talk today anything about politics, but I remind myself and you to make duaa for all the oppressed ones, civilians, children, women, elderly, fathers, sons and brothers. ... So my day has been nice, alhamdulillah. I went to do some grocery shopping and then cooked etc, home chores. We woke up very late today. It has been a sunshiny day, but I was mostly inside like I usually am. But I have enjoyed my time. I tried the modelling clay and made a little plate, it's drying up now. If it comes out nice, I'll make more in sha Allah.  Then I made some kind of lahmacun, I didn't have the exact spices and I am not the best in making bread but it was delicious still.  Often I like to do something at home. The summertimes allows to make the balcony an extra room, and it is nice to do some arts and crafts there. Also I'm happy to do things instead of just lying down, of course. We are people and we ar...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah dears :) how are u doing? Yeah, I think I've overcome most of the anxiety. Now when I say this out loud, probably it will continue but alhamdulillah. I've been listening ruqyah while I have run errands and it's working really well. I recommend to try it, there's so many ruqyah "mixes" in Youtube so you can choose what resonates the best.  ... There has been some sad news, everywhere. I try to make myself happy with little things, as I happen to have this luxury and also this mental health. I bought some modelling clay and I'm excited to try it. I already have an idea what I want to make. I also applied to a school. What? I did it really. We'll see what happens, they might not choose me but at least I will try in sha Allah. ... But what's news today is that I cleaned Suttis' vivarium, lol. I clean it about 2-3 times a year. He is not very smelly, but it's good to freshen up. I went to pick some coco soil in t...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah all. How are u doing? I'm writing on my phone, 6am and I haven't slept at all. I'm ok, I am visiting my friend and we had a nice evening, talking, eating pizza and sauna. Maybe it's because I'm not at home, I have been very anxious and lot on my mind, I haven't gotten any sleep. Sometimes this happens, I might need some extra medicine and in sha Allah I'll be fine. ... So I have had time and u know, just been scrolling social media. That alone is sometimes upsetting to me. But especially now when as we know, Greta Thunberg and the rest of the group are being threatened. And the genocide happening. I'm sorry, I can't think straight and get my words right.. but u know what's going on and has been going on. I wish I could do something. I wish their task will be succesful, as the march to the Gaza border too.  It's also the day of Arafa. Our duaas must be with the Palestinian people. Of course with everyone who is...

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah :) how are u? I had a nice day today. I did some laundry in the morning and then my two friends visited me, we had some coffee and very humble serving of some cookies, dates and grapes. Alhamdulillah. Then hubby came home and we had dinner and now I had time to sit down with you guys :) It was raining earlier but now the sun wants to come out.  ... Have you been fasting? I'm looking forward on Thursdays fast, the day of Arafat. Gotta say I have been kinda caught up with dunya so it's good to focus on reading Qur'an and making dhikr etc. even if it is on one day. I've been thinking about this, how I'm more living the worldly life and leaving the deen on the back of my mind. It usually always goes like this for me, when I'm doing great and things are going fine I kinda am lulled into the peacefulness. I'm not saying I am not grateful, but I just don't worship as good as I could. It's more of the difficult, struggling ti...